2015. augusztus 8., szombat

Bloody hell this night [wall of text]

I don't even care if I use my main account for this but holy shit...Sorry, first time posting here but.. Argh...I am 17 and gay and been dating this pan guy for about two years, don't take me wrong, he's a sweetheart, and we're down for a serious relationship. But he sometimes tends to be an ass just to mess with me... I get jealous for lots of things, and it bothers me a lot. Having a pansexual boyfriend means that girls are also targeting him and it drives me mad. So now I'm abroad working my summer job. And guess what... Today is that particular night when shit happens. I'm a nervous person and if you go too far I may throw up... Yup... So as we are separated by hundreds of miles only communication possible is Facebook. Calling is hella expensive. So we were chatting, getting our conversation intimate and stuff like we always do and later he goes to take a shower. So I decide to doodle while he's away from his computer. I'm an artist and tend to practice human anatomy so today I thought of drawing one of my favourite video game character - pyramid head (silent hill). Yea, that sexy pumped monster is like my wet dream. So my boyfriend comes back online and I show him what I doodled... That was enough... Apparently he got jealous and that's rare (he's very conscious of his body).So few moments later he starts ignoring me and I was like "what's wrong? :)" and he replies with "nothing." It goes on and at some point I got annoyed and insulted him for writing nonsense and that's when shit got down. Well I am unaware that back at my place there is an event going around in few days and my boy is invited. He used that information and said he's going with a girl and I was like "WTF?!". I wrote him a wall of text about how I can't live without him and how my world is empty without him around, cause I'm such a sucker. He didn't reply so I started calling him and asking for him to pick up: I cried myself so hard while writing to him all the sweetest things and he finally replied with "go to bed already. I'm over you."I threw up.My stomach couldn't hold that amount of stress. I smoked a bunch of cigarettes and wrote my final "goodnight, my love, sweet dreams :)*""Awe, you're going to sleep already, but it was so fun to mess with you :p"I exploded. He lied all that time just to have my reaction. And I was being pathetic 'take me back' kind of looser telling him the most amazing things one could say. He said it's all my fault because my job starts at 6am and ends at 10pm I get very little time for him and he craved for attention. He, the one who is so high on himself, who thinks is so cool and fearless. Normally I cry for his attention but this time... I was so mad but couldn't tell him off. I mean he does stupid things, says stupid things, but it breaks my heart to see him sad. And I always thought I was so pathetic but when he admitted crying himself to sleep almost every night without me around, I couldn't just ignore it. I couldn't be mad. Honestly we are so stereotypical, I'm one year younger than him and people laugh that I take the girls role being clingy to him af. But now I realise he is clingy to me as well, so it makes us even.Sorry for this wall of text but just really wanted to share my terrible throw up experience...Tl:Dr I'm abroad working from early morning to late night, my boyfriend of almost 2 years got jealous of my drawing so decided to tease me. Couldn't hold my emotions, threw up, he apologized and we lived happily ever after.

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