i want something deeper

i want to be standing in the rain as someone i love walks away. i yell to him why he's walking away because he always walks away and he stops and stays silent but then says, "because i walk away from the things i care about" and then he runs to me and grabs me and kisses me in the rain as all of our worries drift away..but the only hot gay guy at my school is taken. is there anyway to get to know more gay guys like for kids my age? i got a grindr but my parents looked through it and long story but i'm not into dating apps as a minor. Any suggestions ?