The inevitable curse of being a bottom

When you are a bottom you realize that the top community is like the 1%. Everywhere you turn, everyone you talk to... They are all bottoms. I find myself talking to some one, we are really hitting it off, until we discuss sexual roles... Nothing creates tension knowing that now both of you have lost interest and it has became awkward. Cruising has became a real challenge, you can spend hours online to find something but you have to weed out the dozens of bottoms out and hopefully the top will pick you out of everyone in the crowd.The competition is fierce, and the prizes are little by little being taken away.Sometimes I think I need to just give up and be a top, I don't know why I feel like it's a consolation prize... I just like to bottom more than topping...Oh woe is me...