21 year old emotional breakdown

Finished a romance series that I've been reading for over 8 years, started in high school, about two young adult gay men falling in love in 2008, and all the stigma that comes with it.Suffered a massive emotional break down after finishing the last book just a hour ago. They found each other at 20, and had their happily ever after at 24, and here I am at 21 and never even kissed someone.I really just wanna talk or something.