So it happened and I hate myself for it.

So we all know the stereotypical "straight boy" crush that a lot a gay guys go through. I always thought it would never happen to me, I thought that the knowledge that they wouldn't be attracted to me in the same way would stop it happening. So ya I was wrong. After I started a new job a few months ago I made friends with a bunch of people in training in particular was Ryan, we got paired up a lot for team building exercises so a connection was easy to make not to mention we share a lot of interests and there's not a day goes by that we don't make each other cry with laughter. Recently I think my feelings towards him have grown past just friendship and that's where my problems lay. I don't want to lose a friend because I can't control how I feel about him or the thoughts I've been having its like you know what's right and your body tells you the opposite. He isn't exactly being helpful though, when we can't sit together at work he acts differently than when we do and the other day he said that I'm the only good thing about work, I thought he was taking the piss but he got embarrassed when I brought it up in front of other people. I don't know I guess it's just another thing in life I need to deal with somehow I just needed somewhere to write my thoughts and see what advice people had if any.Apologies for the terrible grammar English lessons are the least of my concerns right now.