Older Men

I'm 19. I've always had this desire to have sex with older men (probably a fetish). I lost my virginity to a 30 year old when I was 18 and I currently have a thing with a 50 year old man.I don't know if it's because I find it sexy that I'm younger than they are or if it's hot because they're older. It's probably a mix of both.Also, the 50 year old that I occasionally have sex with is married and has kids. (He's been going through divorce since we met). He told me he loved me but I stopped talking to him for a few months. When I saw him again he cried so much and told me he missed me.I want advice. Is this a normal thing? Should I stop communicating with the 50 year old until he's fully divorced? There's other irrelevant details but I'm trying to keep it short and sweet. JUDGE ME