I just got banned from a gay discord on my fucking birthday of all days.

I just got banned from a gay discord for being black and gay.I'm literally done and sick and tired of this shit. I am.I hate been black and gay and alone, and dealing with this crap. No friends, no family, no boyfriend. I've never been in love and I'm almost 30 in a couple more years.I hate being in Los Angeles so much.I feel like killing myself today, I do.