Am I ready?

This just happened to me, I was on a date with this guy I met on Grindr, and I almost had sex, but it didn't happen. First off, I'm a virgin... I mean really virgin, like: never had sex, or kissed, or been naked with another person. And I've been kinda slow (sexually), I only started dating 3 months ago...So I was at his place, it was alright, nothing too special. He (I'ma call him Kevin) was really sweet, and understanding, and kind. Also a lot older than I expected. I actually walked 30 mins to his apartment, contemplating my life choices, thinking if I really did want to do this.. and even if I was gonna leave Kevin hanging like the last guy I got close to with, but I pushed on. So I was at his place, shitting myself nervous, and I couldn't stop talking. We talked about our jobs, aspiration, past experiences. Then it started getting real... he wanted to have sex, I wanted to have sex, but when he asked if he could kiss me, I freaked! I wanted to do it but I was so, idk, scared?A lot did/n't happen, but he was understanding. The truth is I didn't know what I want. We talked a little, and cuddled a little.. But in the end I left. We didn't do anything (he was slightly disappointing but he understood), and I walked home.. thinking about this life choice.I don't know if it was my mood, or the general vibe, or he wasn't right for me.. But, am I ready?