Living in the Middle East

At the age of 24 going to bed every night with tears in my eyes, waking up in the morning and prepare to put a mask on my face to pretend to be a different person so I can't be judged. Going to work and then hang with friends and listening to them making fun of gays and laugh with them. Getting a hell good of pay by the end of the month and turning off my mask and go to London for a weekend to be myself for a couple of days then prepare the mask again! They say it gets better and I am just waiting to get better again!!