2016. szeptember 2., péntek
I Probably Overreacted 3:
Tl;dr at the bottom - I might ramble too cause that's what I do.So I'm a direct person. I'm not going to sugarcoat anything and I pretty much wear my heart on my sleeve. If you do something that upsets me or say something triggering to me, I'm going to be pretty vocal and call you out for it. It's just who I am. But I also cry whenever I do this because I have what I like to call 'confrontational anxiety'.I know that confrontational isn't a word, but I dunno what else to call it lol. But without fail if I stand up for myself I get shaky and start crying (really doesn't help me when I'm trying to have a compelling argument lol). I don't like conflict as much as the next guy so I try to avoid it as much as possible, and I'm not afraid to admit that I'm wrong.Anyways to the actual story: so this guy on Grindr contacts saying he and his partner are looking for more friends who are gay. I was totally okay with that and to everyone I'm pretty much an open book with whoever I talk to. He lived close-ish to me so I figure why not, no one In my area can hold a conversation for more than 5 minutes even behind a screen anyways. I'll upload the conversations for more context later since I'm doing this on mobile lol.Everything is starting out fine and well- at least to me anyways and then he tells me that his partner doesn't know that he is in Grindr and looking for 'friends', which in and of itself makes me a little uncomfortable, but I figure he had a good reason for it. Yellow flag for me nonetheless. He tells me to message him through Facebook (a little bit of a struggle to find him, but not hard) and then we move things to WhatsApp. He then tells me to 'act like friends who haven't chatted in awhile'.I think this is where things started to go south. I guess I was being too much of myself around him because I was talking to him like how I would talk to my close circle of friends. He did say to act like friends who haven't chatted in a while, so that's what I was going for. I think he offered his sympathies in regards to my health and I tried to joke about it (cause I like to make light of my life to cope with negativity otherwise I get super depressed). And then the conversation went to a complete halt. I'm not sure if it was just a difference of personality, perspectives or both.I'll get the imgur gallery up asap so you all have a clearer picture of how the exchange went, but I'm feeling I just overreacted after getting triggered.Tl;dr: a guy on Grindr hit me up wanting friendship without his partner wanting to know he was on these apps. We talk, I got triggered talking about my health and tried to joke it off but clearly the feeling was lost in text. Sorry, in bad at writing Tl;Drs. >:EDIT: Here's the conversation. This all happened over maybe an hour or two? Also, apparently I deleted the Grindr conversation. I guess I got too rattled to keep it lol.
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