2016. szeptember 4., vasárnap

Guys Who Are Insecure.

I feel bad even putting this into words, but I need some help with understanding.One of my biggest pet peeves, fourth under cowardice, is a person who allows their insecurities to rear its ugly head uninvited. And by that I mean:"Out of all the guys, why me?""If you're not interested in me just say so""Are you sure you like me?"This will get complicated later on, but for now my question is: why? If someone shows interest in you, why question it? And in my case, after I've fucking slept with a guy, why is he still asking me these petty questions?I notice it's the guys who are insecure around me that ask me questions about how many guys I've slept with before, or if I'm still attracted to them, or if I think that they're "my type", or why I "chose them". In truth, there's actually nothing wrong with these questions. But the painful fucking way they ask it (and you can hear the doubt in their voice) just makes it so unattractive and pathetic.This sounds whiny and it sounds so stuck up and rude, I know. But I'm looking for some sort of reasoning.There's a guy I'm seeing now and we've only seen each other twice, before we did he was messaging me on Grindr almost obsessively. When I did sleep with him, I vaguely warned him not to fall in love with him or get attached when he attempted pillow talk and I briefly left (without using those words, obviously) to which he recognized and he said "I'm not gonna fall in love!" cue nervous laughter. But alas. It's texts on my phone. And messages on Whatsapp. Texts that say "Have you seen anyone since we hooked up" and wanting to spend more time than I can provide him. This guy buys me gifts, and honestly, I'm not one to refuse. But I've literally only seen him twice. Both times were sex in a hotel room and right after I came I put back on my clothes immediately and went home. Like I'm busy. I have a life.And! It's like he wants to text back and forth about the way we're going to have sex. Like if I wanted to write you jack off material, I'd be linking him to some lemon on Wattpad or some shit, but I'm not.The emotional side of my brain is telling me to stop communicating with him altogether because I'm starting to get annoyed. But not to be too materialistic or anything, but I really like the gifts, and the sex isn't that bad.I probably sound like such a bitch. It's just that this happens far too often. It's like I attract a "type", urgh.On a side note: Anyone else hate texting? It makes it so hard tell someone that you want nothing to do with them emotionally without seeming like a sociopath. Which, I really wouldn't mind doing in real life. But over text it's so much more annoying.

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