My parents are hinting they won't let me study abroad next year even if I get accepted. If I have to stay in this country any longer I'll probably kill myself.

I live in Jordan, school is okay, the people are NOT in terms of social acceptance for anything. I want to study in Holland for so many reasons. The beautiful cities, new experiences, new people, great campus life, and lots of opportunities. I'm not happy here, I'm worried. ._.