Lonliness and self doubt.

I'm 17, male, and I live in an area filled with those redneckish and religious types who are anti gay.I thought I could handle it. Coming out of the closet, it wasn't bad, not many people have said things, to my face. I'm kinda big so no one has messed with me, but I hear what they say, and some aren't so subtly homophobic.There are no other people that are gay around here, no nearby support groups, very few people care to hang around me, and all these comments I hear, they just make me feel so isolated and different. With those thoughts come the thoughts of "Am I really able to do this? Could I just try being straight?"I am dating someone through the Internet, a lovely guy in Australia. But i just want someone I can relate to in real life. It gets lonely.