I am so close to just leaving everything behind.

I am so depressed, it could be SAD but i doubt it. I try so hard in life I cannot seam to find anybody and the one that i thought i found dumped me. Ive been working in my house today I was supposed to have help but they flaked out. Hell i cant even find somebody on grindr. Its just come to the point where its not worth it, or at the least im finding out its not worth living. Having PTSD and being a vet does not help.