I don't know what to do.

Beware, this is going to be emotional.I'm stuck between ending it all and coming out. I'm so fucking confused. I'm 17 and a junior in highschool, my group of friends have been together since junior high. This group includes my closest friend whom I've been close with since 3rd grade. I've not the slightest clue when it started to develop or if it was always there and I ignored it. But they are all extremely homophobic. I haven't accepted my sexuality since a little less than a year ago. It was this week that I broke. My closest friend expressing his dislike of gays and how nasty it it must be to be one. My family is Catholic and my father is very judgemental. No gay is safe in this house. I'm fucking torn, I know I'm not the only one who feels they have nobody close to vent to. I know I'm not the only one who are stuck in the closet and can't talk back to dicks because they are scared to out themselves. I feel boxed in and frustrated. I'm contemplating coming out just to see if my friends will label rather than talk things out. But I'm scared of having no friends at the same time. It seems easier to just run away. I'm so conflicted with what to do. I've never been this depressed. The thing that worries the most is what if even after coming out it doesn't relieve this hurt. I just lose all my friends and suffer alone.Fuck me.