Getting a BF advice ...

Hey guys okay I'm gonna make a really predictable post but here goes anyways ...Any advice on getting a bf as a basically total bottom? See, I can barely say total bottom alone.I hate that I love it and I'm too afraid to put on my Grindr account that I'm a btm so I put verse btm.I feel like I'd just become another one of the giant herd of bottoms. And that id also be ridiculed by people I don't know on Grindr. Lol. I know. Sounds really stupid.Also, id just feel ashamed about admitting I've never topped a guy.Even though I wouldn't be opposed to eventually trying with someone.Again , I know , dumb post but any food for thought would be nice.