Little conflicted.

I always knew I liked being initiated upon, but as a larger fellow (bi) i always assumed it would be up to me. I don't mind flirting, but I always felt kinda cheated being the chaser. One of my biggest issues with women was that I just wasn't "man" enough. I like women, I just find it exhausting to constantly preen someone. it felt insulting when I would hear I wasn't romantic enough because i just did something wrong.Low and behold almost no one initiated flirting beyond a glance or small talk, and I just don't know what else to do beyond reciprocate. I just assumed I was boring... but today some grocery bagger about my age and size hit on me, hard. I don't know how but he saw right through me, like he already knew exactly what I wanted to hear. I wanted to engage more, but my dad was there and the bagger was literally talking about "sending some groceries down my chimney" and wondering if I "wanted to be mrs.Claws".I felt like an idiot. I hadn't dated in 3 years, and I'd never flirted with a guy, especially from this perspective. He didn't seem to mind.I was so blown away, and he was so cute. It felt more natural than anything before. I guess I sound like a slut, or something. I mean, I should be more insulted, but the way he said it, it was more playful. Not creepy or aggressive at all... idk. I've been drinking and staying in a lot and to hear someone be so forward kinda revitalized me in a way. I never was physically attracted to men, but I always knew I needed something women weren't giving me emotionally and psychologically. Women are nice but when the whole thing is forced it ultimately ends up feeling empty. I'm sure some can relate.Should I pursue this guy? Have more self respect and just focus on being dateable again? I mean I spent so much of the last 2 years building up a shell of cynicism... convincing myself it would just be easier avoiding relationships altogether. It was like a crazy sneak attack that just made all that work worthless in a moment's notice. I have a million questions and no one in my life to really turn to.Long story short, I feel like a totally different person after that guy and not to say im only going to date men from now on, but I think a lot of that fear kinda left me today. I