2017. december 22., péntek

I have to meet my bf's family tomorrow

Literally shaking rn. If I hold my hand out in front of me I can actually see it quivering.Self-pity out of the way, my boyfriend and I were really distraught that we're on Christmas vacation, so I suggested yesterday that I could maybe come over and we could just snuggle up in blankets and pillows and watch anime or play video games together all day. So tomorrow I'll have to go chill at his place. Theres only one problem.FUCK, I have to meet his parents and siblings! I've never had to do this before cause I've never been to a boyfriends house before and it honestly has me completely terrified. His parents sound like extremely nice people and that they love him a lot so it's not like I'll have to worry about them being homophobic or whatever. I'm just a very introverted person and this is the most difficult thing I think I've had to do.On a small side note, I have a confession to make that also has me scared. His parents are going to be gone for some time during the day and I will also be staying the night. I think you can see what I'm scared about here.I'll get it out of the way and say I'm not saying I'm scared of sex, I just haven't done it with a guy before and he's done it quite a bit. So I'm not scared of what could happen, I'm scared of the potential awkwardness cause I've never had a sexual experience before and I'm the top of the relationship, I'm expected to lead probably.Needless to say, whatever happens, he's the absolute love of my life and I'll do whatever it takes to make him happy. Woo boy, tomorrows gonna be a roller coaster.

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