Coming out on Christmas Eve

My friend had texted me that she got engaged and I was so happy for her. I joked around with her saying that while most of my friends were getting engaged, i was sitting at home buying things from amazon. She laughed advising me to use one of those dating apps, like another engaged friend of mine used to find his current fiance, to find a nice girl for myself... Reading the text she wrote made me just want to tell her that i was gay. Years and years of keeping it a secret to everyone in the universe. I was hovering over the send button that would reveal what I've been keeping secret all my life for so long before I finally decided to at least tell one important person in my life. It felt like such a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders.Christmas Eve 2017. I'll never ever forget tonight. It's only the beginning.