Soo, is it time to say gooddy to my sexual life?

I'm so confused right now. I think that I'm done with men. I'm a month away to be 30 and I'm lonely as hell, never been in a relationship, I swear that I've tried everything. I live in a really small country where being gay is still a taboo (not against the law though) but people are very religious and closed minded, so most guys want to live a double life, they ain't looking for anything serious but 'discrete friends' or one night stands. Most people here a brown skin, so most of the guys are looking for a white stud taken from a Sean Cody video, something that I am so far to be. I REALLY want to fall in love and to be intimate with someone, you know, to cuddle and stuff, there's so much in life beyond sex and all this gay hookup culture makes me sick, I feel like we're an Amazon product on those apps like Grindr where our value is taken from things that we can't control such our skin color or height. Another item more on the list. I'm just fed up with this shitty game: *When I feel lonely so I open Grindr only to get rejected a million times. And If I manage to find someone who pity me enough to have sex with me, then no matter how good sex went, they wouldn't call or text me back again the next day, like nothing happened. So I end up feeling worse about myself and wondering what the hell I did wrong. Another empty high. And here we go again. The thing is, here we don't have any gay sport clubs or organizations to meet people out of sexual charged environments. The only way to meet guys is through social media, dating apps and a few gay clubs. My friends say that I need to chill and enjoy being single and have much sex. But I've tried that and I don't feel good about hooking up with a different dude every weekend. Empty sex is better than no sex at all. But I feel worse after engaging on it. Its a vicious cycle. I don't feel 'dirty' or 'guilty' after sex, but I just don't get why some guys don't like to 'repeat'. Even if the experience was good. I mean, last time that I had a one night stand the guy came twice, he asked me to stay cuddling afterwards. Then he gave me a super deep kiss at his front door when I was leaving, so things were pretty well. But guess what? I texted him twice and never got a reply. A few days ago I tried again and he replied very nicely that he's been busy with his job and stuff, and when I asked when were we getting together again he just replied: I DON'T KNOW. The other day I also had a date with someone and we went to watch a movie. Everything went great and he invited me to go for an ice cream when the movie was over and we spent all night just talking about our hobbies and stuff. Never got a reply again from him on the phone. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so done with this. But I have needs, hookups are empty highs. You know, all the process of sending dick pics to persuade a stranger to come to my place or me going to his, you know, people using fake names, that might be serial killers or something. You don't even know... It's just weird. My straight friends are already getting married and having children, nothing wrong with that just we're on different paths, I just feel left behind in life. I just don't get it, again, guys, I've talked to guys who after seeing my body and face pic they MUST see my cock in order to be worthy of their time. If you like my body and face, and we're having a nice chat why everything need to depend on my cock? This is a very small island and everyone knows everyone so I don't feel comfortable sending nudes to I don't know who. I don't know what to do in my life. I'm too old for this shit. I just wanted to be in love, in a monogamous relationship without all this crap. But it seems like material for the new Mission Impossible sequel. TRUST ME. ANY SUGGESTION WILL BE REALLY APPRECIATED.