Love problems, help me.

Hi, Im heartbroken, in love with an "ex" and angry at myself. This past year since october I´ve had this thing for a tall broad shouldered athletic body, newly out of the closet guy. (We are 19/20). I started to be more with his friends to get closer to him because he was introvert. It became very painful because he sent em mixed signals and being let down almost every day. It led to me asking him what he felt and I just wanted him to reject me so that I could move on. He didn't do that, instead he said why not try it out, because he wasn't sure what he felt for me, as he was sexually attracted to me. We had a thing going for a month, and during that month it felt wrong and awkward, but I was determined that we could get through it because I was in love with him. He didn't feel it that way and broke up with me, kind of. (We weren't in a relationship) This was in late January I went around thinking that why have feelings for someone like that, and basically suppressed my feelings for him. Now lately I have still strong feelings for him, and now Im letting them be there. I talked to him recently to clear up how I felt and our relation. He said he never had romantic feelings for me and the he was never in love with me, but he had sexual feelings for me. I asked him why and he said that I wasn't his type maybe, and that he felt that he only got feelings for heterosexual men, and that he thought he had feelings for someone straight now. This hurts me so much. I just want to be more masculine so that he might fall in love with me again. I feel that if we were at a gay bar he would get all the men and everyone would fall in love with him because he is masculine and broad shouldered, handsome and what not. I want to get over him, but Im so unsure. Will I ever fall in love with someone who loves me back?