in denial?

I keep pursuing and having an interest in women but I can't remember the last time I had sexual thoughts about a woman. For years I have only been fantasizing about m/m action, only been fapping to gay porn and if I do watch straight porn I have to imagine I am the girl. I had sex with a guy about 20 yrs ago and liked it, since then I have been with a few women but the last one I had trouble getting aroused and when she went down on me it made me want be on her place. This really caused me to look more closely at my sexuality. note (I grew up in a fundimental christian house)