I dont like the feeling

I'm gay and 17 years old.I'm not a sex addict but i always looking men penis no matter how they look.I just look their dicks.I dont wanna have sex with them i just want grap their dicks but i dont like this feeling.And when i think their dicks this makes me having a boner.And all the time i have boner.I Want to get ride of it.How can i get ride of it also it is not normal i mean wanna grap every men dicks is it?