Christian Guilt

So I was raised Southern Baptist but when I came out as gay I saw the real evil that is in the church. Not to say that Christianity itself is evil but a lot of people in it are just fucking assholes who cannot be reasoned with. Anyway here I am years later, now a college graduate and in a committed relationship. I don't think I'm agnostic but I have trouble believing in a religion where you are sent to hell forever for your time on earth that is only like 80 years. Not to mention all the contradictions in the Bible and the way many Christians act makes me think it is all too much to handle. After all this I still have Christian guilt and feel like I'm just fucked. Anyone else ever feel like this?