I don't want to be gay

I realised I'm gay about 2 months ago. I'm out to most people as bi already but I'm gay. I don't want to be gay, I'll struggle to find a boyfriend and I'm worried people will think I'm weird. I live in a small university town (only about 10,000 students) and it's quite geographically isolated. I know I'll find it hard to find a boyfriend. I've never been in a relationship and I guess now I know why. I'm just not sure how I'll get a boyfriend and that's why I want to be straight, it'd be easier to find a girlfriend.Plus I know when I do find a boyfriend the sex I'll have to have will be anal and I'm not sure I'll want to do that but I guess I will :/Thanks