2017. december 21., csütörtök
I could have anyone I want but want no one...
So, to start things off, my name is Michael and I'm currently 26 years old. I've only ever been in one real relationship so far that lasted 5 years. It was a mutual love at first sight type of deal too, we met each other with no prior knowledge of one another and we hooked up on the same day. I don't suspect such a relationship is normal by any means but after a few years he became verbally abusive and the last year of the relationship ended when I caught him cheating on me. It's been 5 years in the single life now though and I've started looking again.Now that I've been looking for someone again, I've learned that friends and family were right when they told me that I could all but literally have anyone I wanted. Most prospective partners I meet are more than interested in me and everyone tells me how attractive I apparently am or how I'm different from other gay men they've met in refreshing ways but I'm just never as interested in them as they are me. They're all so 2-dimensional and uninteresting to me or they're only wanting "fun". Another issue I'm encountering is that the idea of waiting until marriage for any kind of sex is a massive deterrent for most people that I've met. Don't get me wrong, I like sex but I've never had it outside of a loving long-term relationship, it would take meeting a very special person to convince me to change that too. Additionally, I don't experience physical attraction, never have; there's not a single person, celebrity or otherwise, that I think is attractive. I am however attracted to the sound of a person's voice, their ability to convey emotion with their eyes, their ability to feel and openly express emotion in general, their grammar usage and vocabulary, their outward behavior, as well as anything they might have in common with me. It's also really important to me that a partner is able to be my best friend, which doesn't seem to be as important to anyone else I meet. No prospective partner I encounter though has been desirable to me and I've pretty much ruled out every single man within 150 miles that over the past 6 months. I know that's not long, but I've identified this pattern of disinterest and at the very least wanted to get it off my chest if not hopefully get some advice. Has anyone else experienced this? Do I need to change something about myself?Sorry for the wall of text, it feels good to at least just vent a little but any advice would be immensely appreciated.
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