Today. [x-post from /r/LGBTForeverAlone]

I hate myself so much right now. I can not believe this is the person I am today. I came to Reddit to seek out friends. People to talk to. I have failed miserably. I can not find happiness in real life. I can not find happiness on the internet. I can not find someone to talk to and rant without being made fun of. I hate this. I hate myself so much. I hate the LGBTQ community and how apathetic they are to me. I hate how they have no empathy for me but show it in spades to people simply because of their age. I am worthless. I am meaningless. I have nothing to live for in my life. I thought I could find something online worthy of living for but, I have failed myself. I have failed at everything up to this point. I don't want to be unhappy anymore. I don't even want to talk about it anymore. Thank you to Reddit for showing me that I truly had nothing to look forward to anymore. I thank you all so much for that. I know what I need to do now.