2017. március 28., kedd

I know Im bisexual but am I actually gay?

Let me preface this with this, I have been happily married to my wife for the last four years. She is the love of my life and my best friend. We have always been faithful to one another and completely honest.Very early on in our relationship she figured out I was bisexual and was completely okay with it. After all how could she not be, her father is a gay man and so she grew up very accepting of the LGBTQ community. Her only concern was if I would ever date another man. I lied and told her no.Flash forward to last week when we played the "what if" game. Our friends are going through a pretty nasty break up, so my wife asked me if I would ever date another woman if we were to divorce. My honest answer was no, probably not. She then posed another question, would I ever date a man if we divorced. My honest answer was meh, I'd give it a whirl. Apparently this was the wrong response because this led to a very emotional argument.My wife was relentless in trying to get me to admit to being gay. Her basic reasoning for why I must be gay was that I wanted to be with man, have sex with men, and fool around with men. I didn't deny any of this but I had to do my very best to point out that I love her, will be and have always been faithful to her, and want to be with her. Still she was relentless. She said on multiple occasions that she never wanted to be with a man who was attracted to other men. At the end of our conversation she basically just said that she still loved me and wanted to be with me and in order to do so would just ignore that I have an attraction to men.So, this leads to the title of my rant/question.After our argument I began to internalize and debate with my self, am I actually gay?If I'm being totally honest, I do find myself more sexually attracted to men, and the vast majority of porn I watch is gay.Am I gay and just refusing to accept it like my wife says?

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