the pleasure and pain from anal sex?

i'm a virgin.just gotta let you know that.i am always curious on how anal sex feels like.from watching gay porn and hearing people's experience with it, i got two informations out of it.they experience pleasure and pain.so much you'll get stories of how some guy's first time feels like.usually you'll get something like "it hurts for the first time, but eventually it gets better".me all horny, i want to try it.i want to know what this "pleasure" feels like.i don't have sex toys, so once in a while i tried to put a finger up my rectum.i got questions i want to ask :/from the penis, male orgasm is pretty easy to elaborate.if a girl asked you about it, you usually say "it feels ticklish on your penis", simple (well that's what i'm gonna say if a girl ever try to ask me that).but in this case, i got the same question on how woman orgasm feels like.what do you feel? can you describe the feeling of pleasure you got from it? i tried to wiggle my finger in it but i don't feel anything special.i ended up having this weird look on my face."is that it? is that all i got?" i'm a little dissapointed with it.maybe male's "G-spot" is much more further than the length of your finger? or is it "the bigger the better" case? i've only put two fingers in so far.of course that's not big but it's quite big for my virgin ass.might experiment it further though.well idk man, i'm just curious about it.people always exaggerate it in gay porn with all those moaning and screaming.why do domtop reluctant to be a subbot? don't they want to feel pleasure from other direction? or is it because those "fragile male masculinity" case? well whatever.now for the next question, how does the pain feel like? no doubt being a bottom will have to feel pain from sex (lol who am i to say that?) from my experience fingering myself, i did feel pain.it was sharp kind of pain. since penis is all round and soft, i always thought that the pain you feel is dull. so with my shallow mind, i think i could endure the pain even though i never tried anal.but one time, while i tried to finger myself, i feel sharp kind of pain.sharp pain is a kind of pain i dislike the most.i don't know, from getting punched in the back or sliced by a knife, which one do you prefer? had an experience with huge wound and alcohol just flushed down right onto it.never want to experience it again.well anyway,it's not inside me, but outside the hole.no discomfort up my rectum (was it supposed to be painful inside or outside?).tried to water my hole and then i feel acute pain around it.thinking that a top make a friction on your ass with his penis over and over while you have sharp pain from doing it and you have to endure it till he cum makes me cringe.man, writing all those up makes me cringe.i'm just saying that my experience fingering myself is making more question than it answered.how does it feel like fingering yourself? was it supposed to feel like how i felt? if so that's lame man.