Acceptance with myself

I am 19 regular guy and was pretty happy during high school but just didn't date anyone. When I started college I met a girl and everything was great up until I decided to have sex with her (I was a virgin) and would hate having sex with her it took all I had to keep a erection and it was one of the reasons we broke up. I have always had moments of watching gay porn and loving seeing men in underwear or naked but if i masturbated to it after I would think wtf? But now I really can appreciate the female body but it doesn't do as much for me as seeing a man on the internet completely naked and I am not saying anything to anyone about me thinking I could be bi or gay because my parents finically support me through college and I'm afraid to tell anyone because I live in a small town in Georgia but there is one guy that I am so attracted to and want to experiment with him but I am afraid he could tell people if he didn't want to and everyone knows he is bi so I don't want people to put two and two together and start questioning me. Any suggestions is appreciated I love being able to talk about stuff on here