2016. október 31., hétfő
How tall/short are you?
So, I got really curious about this because I used to date someone over 6 feet, and holy crap, am I short! I'm like this 5'3" boy and my ex is a giant compared to me. Like, I have never payed any attention to details like height, but wow. I literally had to look up at him last time I saw him in person. I was just curious if anyone had a huge height difference with their partner or ex or something.
Places to cruise in San Antonio?
Anyone know of any good places to cruise here in San Antonio? Any tips on how to identify other cruisers?
IS BEING CALLED GAY BAD?
I take it as an insult, because they intended it to be derogatory. (I am not gay BTW)
Never know when to take the plunge and tell a boy I like him
Background info: 22 y/o gay man, sophomore in college. Ended a 4.5 year relationship in spring 2015 with a guy who encouraged me to distrust people and doubt my own feelings.I had several classes with a boy that I thought was cute and who I talked to a lot, in a kind of small-talk "how'd you do on that test? I bombed lol" way. Never really talked seriously, never asked if he was gay, never told him I thought he was cute--just normal friendly chat. That's fine, just like "ah well, it would've been nice to get to know him and tell him he's cute."Haven't seen him 6 months.He adds me on social media, talks about wanting to hang out, and that's where I am now. He added me about a week ago, chats happened intermittently.Mutual friend says he came out recently. Bang.So my problem. I told him we'd hang, with mutual friends, play games, etc. Basically being friendly. Great.But! I was thinking about talking to him, about telling him that I thought he was cute, and asking him out. And I get incredibly anxious. "Of course you can't. He just wants friends probably. You'll make him uncomfortable and then you won't even be friends." Tortured myself for a night.I know it's all about taking risks, when you like someone.But is there a way to tell when someone likes you more than just as friends?My anxieties rile up every time I think about it. And I get into decision paralysis, and things pass by.Help?
Is it weird?
Is it weird I enjoy a certain type of penis? I don't know, and I don't know to describe it but when guys send me pictures if it's not the size, shape or whatever then I don't really enjoy it. I don't know maybe I'm just a weirdo.
Guy with feelings for my "straight" friend
Here we go, another typical story of a closeted gay college student with feelings ( hooray!).Back story, I have know I was gay since I can remember, but had trouble telling anyone until finally one new years eve I rather drunkenly broke down and told my friends with a pitiful text to our group chat. Being a player on the hockey team, with all that entails I felt pressured to look down and pretend to be straight. I am an athletic guy and not to be offensive but I guess not your "typical gay guy" ( i know there are no "typical gay guys" I am just taking into consideration stereotypes and yes I know I know they arent always true..) Blah blah blah Fast forward a couple years now at this point I am a sophomore in college in a fraternity, and now I was to get a little brother. One member of the new class in particular I found attractive, and somehow we clicked. It probably has to do with the fact that we are both nursing majors and have a lot in common. Soon enough it became a joke that me and him were a "thing" in our fraternity ( even though he has a girlfriend of 3ish years back home), and there was no question that he was going to end up as my little. (While this seemed like a blessing it really felt like a curse because now my liking him feels creepy.) Anyway, blah blah blah hes now been my little for a year now ( i am a junior and he a sophomore) and I came out to him and he was extremely supportive and understanding, which only made me like him more. Now at this point I know it seems like I just caught feelings for a nice straight guy but wait there's more.I think he might be Bi/Gay/ just a wild card. Here is whyDrunken comments and actions: -Grabs my ass and nut taps/grabs me all the time ( more when drunk) and doesn't really protest when I do the same-the other night when he was in a fight with his girlfriend said " you know what, fuck girls" and then something along the lines of how guys would be easier ( probably just joking around because he was with me and my other gay friend)one night sophomore year, both drunk ( shirtless it was really hot out) he was to stay in my dorm room, I had pulled the couch next to my bed and he kept tapping my arm just basically screwing with me and then pulled me off my bed and i landed on him, he grabbed my butt and we were like that for what was probably a full 6 seconds before my other roommate said " go to bed pussies" at which point we sort of pushed me back onto my bed.just the other night we ( me him and two of our other guy friends, one of which is gay) were drinking at a party and my little initiated this weird four way kiss on the cheek telling me to kiss him on the cheek, to which I did not protestthese are just things that have happened recently i'm sure there are more like him always trying to wrestle me but these will do General things:He likes to tell me I hate him all the time, I dont know if this is significant but it seems like he wants me to say the opposite Im not really sure. Once I replied " its quite the opposite actually"-He will point out guys to me that I have said I find attractive and one day said when pointing one out "i'd probably fuck him" but I think he's just playing with me-among many drunk dumb things I have said to him, recently I texted him when he was at a different school visiting his girl friend that i was annoyed everyone is straight saying " why the hell is everyone straight" to which he replied the following morning " Idk Im sorry i can change if you want :p" to which then I replied " what" and he said " Idk goodnight drunkie"Other times I ask him if he's going to drink with me on the weekend and twice he has replied saying " why so you can take advantage of me smirking emoji"-Finally, He jokingly says sometimes " oh my gosh, stop flirting with me!" when I actually am lol ( just kick me in the balls while Im down please)So at this point I'm not really sure what to think. I know he has a girl friend and he always points out girls, and i do know he is intimate with his girl friend, but recently for about 2 months he said they haven't but i'm not sure about this past weekend when he went to visit her and he has been having problems with her BUT he has started to hang out a lot a girl from our school.I know I don't want to break him and his girl friend up if in fact he is bi/gay but I also don't want to tell him how i feel out wright because its awkward and terrifying. Additionally I would not want to compromise our friendship because we pretty much do everything together.So I guess if you stuck around through my pity party/ complaint my question is really "what the heck do i do?" I really cannot stand the way things are now but also I don't want to lose him as a friend so I feel like I am at standstill.Also, is there any way to find out if hes actually interested without me directly asking?R.I.P my dignity - Thanks RedditAlso this is my first post on reddit ever, yay!
Did I lose him? What would you do?
To make a long story short. This guy and I have known each other for several years. He lived in NY and I lived out of state. We have always kept in touch. I moved to NY for work and started to hang out with him since I've been here (several months). In that several months I have told him that I had feelings for him. One night he told me he just wanted to be friends. This killed me. We didn't speak for several weeks. One day me and him decided to meet after a month of not speaking, grab some drinks and talk about what happened. He disclosed that he was dating a new guy. I told him i was dating someone. He told me he thought about what I told him about liking him and that he "really thought it over". He told me he even talked to his mom about it and his mother likes me and thinks he should do it. He told me "Who knows what the future holds. My boyfriend leaves in November and we are breaking it off. Who knows what will happen. You're an attractive guy." So here we are this week (him and his boyfriend broke up 3 weeks ago). We grab some drinks. I see two guys making out in the corner of a bar. I jokingly say to my guy "Wow, they are over there kissing hardcore and ive yet to even get one." So he kisses me on the cheek and goes "well there ya go". Seeping into conversation he revealed to me that he was "Kinda jealous of the guy I was dating" and laughed and said "i shouldn't be saying this". Fast forward to this weekend. We go out for halloween. We are dancing and having a good time. But he keeps pointing out guys to me and saying things like " You should go get his number" or "Would you date someone like that". he got drunk and told me he "just wants me to find someone so I can be happy". I flip out. I told him I had feelings for him and that I don't like him trying to push these random people on me. he said "But I thought we were just friends". Well, here we are today on Monday. He doesn't want to speak to me. He deleted me from facebook. Im devastated. It's like he has slipped these little hints at me this whole time. Im just left here with so many questions. I never got jealous of any of the men my close friends were dating. So why would my guy be jealous of mine? I don't know what to do from here. I hate not speaking to him. We spoke every single day for well over 2 years. What do you think? I'm hurt and lost.
Feeling guilty about it.
Hello, I'm 21and still in closet. Sometimes I feel that this is not what I'm supposed to be and feel guilty about it. Maybe it's because I'm an "intolerant gay"? When I was younger I always thought that being gay is bad because my family said that (they never said that but gave the "hint" even when I disagreed with that nowadays). But I feel held down. Maybe I will never come out for my family.
I'm looking for a gay pen-pal
Hi Reddit, I created this account for this post.Well I like the community here, and I just would like to exchange with someone. So I can see how being gay is in another country and I can talk freely about everything with someone, without being afraid of anything. I'm in highschool and as you can guess, I'm not enough bold to be myself.Don't be afraid I'm not super shy actually, I'm not disgraceful, so it wont be awkward I guess. I don't mean romantic stuff or anything, I'm not trying to date. (but why not who knows?)We can talk about languages, movies, videogames, litterature, films, philosophy, and just about our feelings and thoughts. I can teach you French for free aswell !I know this might sound weird, like inapropriate, but I guess I just need someone talkative to talk to. I just need this.Sorry for the AW post. Contact me if interested ;)Have a nice day all !
What do you guys think of stereotypical female "gay icons"?
One of the most prevalent gay stereotypes is that we're fans of empowered (and often flamboyant) female celebrities. What do you personally think of these women? Do you enjoy any of their work? Why do you think they have so many gay fans (at least allegedly)?Examples: Madonna, Cher, Britney Spears, Mariah Carey, Judy Garland, Elizabeth Taylor, Meryl Streep, Joan Rivers, Kylie Minogue, Liza Minnelli, Barbra Streisand
2016. október 30., vasárnap
Should I get tested?
So I'm on grindr every now and then but last week I hooked up with two different guys on different days we didn't kiss but I did fuck them in the ass without a condom. I asked one of the guys If he wanted me to wear one and he said it was up to me so I didn't the other guy well I was wearing one and it broke and I asked if he wanted me to keep going and he said yes so I did. I don't think I have anything but I've been talking to this guy for a few months now and I don't want him to catch anything if we ever end up doing anything sexual.
[Controversial Question] Do you believe gay people are born gay?
Im extremely interested in everyones thoughts. Feel free to debate (be civil).I personally think you're either born without sexuality or straight. And then grow into it. I know I definently wasn't born gay and it gradually took hold.
How to come out to same-sex best friend without ruining friendship.
Hello,I am 24 years old and still in the closet. I am bisexual, I'm equally attracted to men as much as I am to women. It took me a long, loong time to come to terms with it myself, and when I finally did, I felt a great weight come off my shoulders, but that weight has returned, as it's a secret I've been keeping for 3ish years and it's really starting to bear down on me heavily.I'm not overly social and don't have many close friends. I know coming out will ruin my relationships with some overly religious family members and I'm ready for that. I think I'm fine telling my parents, let's face it, my lackluster love life already has them suspecting something, and they have been even before I came to terms with it myself. I think they would accept it rather quickly. There is a one person I'm terrified of telling though, one of the singularly most important people of my life, my same sex, straight, best friend. He came into my life 2.5 years ago, and I feel has saved me in many ways. Like I said I am a loner and if it wasn't for him, after graduating college I would have been 100% alone. He's kept me company and been there for me through thick and thin, and I owe him so much. He knows I love him (as a friend) and I've told him that on many occasions. Now what I'm worried about is that I'll end up freaking him out and making him think I'm attracted to him by coming out.As many straight male friends do, we joke around a lot about inappropriate stuff. We joke about our genitals, and to the outside eyes we might even seem gay sometimes the way we act around each other. He says he's straight, and has shown support for the LGBT community in some conversations, but more along the lines of "If they don't bother me I don't care what they do". I feel that if I come out to him he might revert and think of all our normal jokes as me flirting, or being attracted to him and it terrifies to me to lose him, or for him to distance himself from me.My one wish is to tell him and for it all to remain the same. I want to have this weight that is crushing me right now off my shoulders, but I also want to keep the relationship I've spend so long building and treasure so much the same.Please any advice you guys can give me will be extremely helpful. I know he's my best friend and he should and probably would support me no matter what, but I'm still terrified.Thank you in advance and sorry for the ramble.
Am I vain?
Dating in the gay community isn't the easiest endeavor. I'm sure I'm not the first to say/think that. The gay community has always been limited (all relative depending on your city). To make matters worse, I have and probably will always be attracted to straight looking/acting guys. Maybe it's because I'm a bottom, therefore making me more interested in the masculine archetype. I don't exactly identify with being too feminine myself, though I do have some feminine traits (especially my body type). So with all that being said, is it vain of me to not even try dating a feminine guy? Usually, masculinity is is a make it or brake it trait for me. Now don't think that I'm hating on feminine guys, my best friend is and I love him like no other.
[closeted person] how can you spot/identify a closeted bi guy who claims to be out?
Hey Redditors, I have a small problem that I'd like some help with. I apologize for having to write so many details and excuse my bad writing (I'm using a phone lol) this may sound like a strange question (believe me it is to me lol). I know someone for a long time who we went out on a date once and then ever since we started texting more than regularly. One day on Valentine's Day I asked him out for a fun night to which he made some excuses, I then took the hint that he might not be interested so I left him alone. Few days later, we texted and as we exchanged few convos he said that he wants to hookup with me when I asked him why he said "I've always wanted to with you" I know a pickup line when I see one, so I came clean about my intentions. In other words, I broke off the texting. Several long months later, I chose to text him since it's been a dead year for me. We began texting and picked off where we left as if we never stopped. I told him that I'm game with what he was offering and this would strictly be an FWB relationship only. He agreed and then we met in person for the second time (a year and half later from our initial meeting). We talked for a long time and I could tell he was nervous (but didn't want to admit it). Long story short we ended up having sex. Before we met for the second time, he would text me regularly and would ask/check up on me if I haven't been texting. Then we met, as I predicted the texting gone down a bit as time progressed it went really down and our convo basically became limited. I would sometime not text him for few weeks and when I do, just to see how he's going and ask how come he hasn't been texting (not in a needy way tho) he would say "I've been busy..". My gut was always telling me that he's lying and I caught him on it couple of times, but I've never called it on him, because I felt he's not my BF and I have no right to do so. We all have our personal lives and moments too, eh. Anyhoo, after couple of months later we met again at my house as he lives with his family. We hung out at home, talked and had a decent convo, etc. later that night we had sex and kissed me goodbye before he left to his house. As a person, you can tell he's a nice guy, a bit of himself, shy (sometimes too shy), easy to talk to and I have fun whenever we meet and the sex is very good. Right after the third meeting, we met few times more, but there will always be a gap in between (always has been with him).I asked him if he's out and he said to me that he is to everyone except his dad. He lives with his mom and step dad, so I assumed his biological father wouldn't know (although to my knowledge they're still in touch and I think he lives in the same city). He sometimes would tell me personal things about himself, about the future, etc. Then his answers changes the next time we meet or fluctuates. It felt that he's trying to move this thing between us to the next level and then maybe he freaks out or get cold feet and changes his mind. The last time I met him was ages ago (I think in June/July 2016) I got sick after our last hookup (strep throat) I texted him and let him on and told him to get tested if he felt he had sore throat since it can be confused. He asked me how I was doing and got worried if he now have contracted the bacteria lol. I told him it's nothing and explained it to him how the infection occurs blah blah won't bore you with the details. He said he had his tonsils removed which is great news for him. I was still waiting for my swab test result to confirm that it's 100% strep and not an STD. On the day of the results, he texted me to see how I was feeling and what the results were (I didn't tell him that I got tested for STD too) he was on the verge that it could be either a strep/regular sore throat. I lied and told him it was just a regular sore throat (didn't want to make him think anything gross of me lol). From that day we stopped texting for a long time and I then asked him how he has been, and that I haven't heard from him ever since, which he gave the same response (as usual), I told him that it would suck if whatever between us ended (the FWB thing), but if he wanted to I'd be perfectly fine by it and I meant it. I thought I'd give him get out of jail free card lol. He responded that that's so cute and no he doesn't he's just having one of those days. I was taken back by the "cute" response and asked him why he said it. He then told me it's cute that I want him and that I like his "d" lol. I think he was a little self conscious, and to understand why? Whenever we had sex I never came he always did. I've been having a lot of stress I've scored high on the stress level sadly lol and my ADHD medication plays a role too unfortunately. I told him that cumming is not the finish part for me I'm satisfied without it and it's only a bonus. He knows how to bring that satisfaction. He doesn't know I have ADHD cuz I never told him since I was diagnosed recently at that time and I have the right to privacy and we were never boyfriends. I'm fine with it now and more open about it then before. We haven't spoken ever since that last text. I ignored him completely. He then texted and it's always short and it's the same line over and over. Then we crossed path at uni we said "hi" to each other and I continued to walk as he did too since I had to get to my lecture. Few weeks later he texted me again same line/convo then again after few weeks or so. I never acted/been rude to him I just lost interest. Until one day I found out that most of the stuff he told me about him aren't true and one of them is the fact that his actually not out (probably only to his female best friend) and that's a maybe. The info I got isn't 100% reliable I'd say about 80 or so. Things were starting to make sense to me now, it just hit me and I realized that his behavior does reflect on the info I received. The last time we met in person, as we were leaving he would always kiss goodbye, before then he spotted on my calendar that I had a blood test schedule (it was a blood donation appointment) I don't know why I wrote test instead of donation. He might have picked up on that I might have HIV (which I don't) he asked and I told him I donated he then asked me how come they let me since I'm gay. I told him it should be fine, I get tested for HIV regularly and the donated blood gets tested vigorously before they release them to patients. Anyway, we were talking and he was about to kiss me then he hesitated as he was leaving I later told him don't I get a kiss in a funny way he said what if people sees us. I was surprised by that since no one can, it's true the door was open but there is no window that looks up to my side of the door and impossible for someone to spot us plus he's out why would he care, right? Everything started to make sense. He's always careful and safe with everything. All the time we had sex we never had sexual intercourse, ever! I respected his choice and I never pressure him or made him feel that I'm not happy with his choice. It turns out he's so scarred of diseases plus he feels it's not gonna be clean ( I understand that I'm always clean and make sure since I'm a germ-freak haha) he didn't say that to me but I knew somehow.Now to jump to my question, how can you spot a closeted person who claims he's out? I'm no where looking to out him or put him under the light to pressure him or something. I just want to know and be sure. I've cut ties with him and I have no interest at all. But, I don't want to break his heart nor let him feel that he's alone on this. Coming out is not easy and it sucks to be something you're not I know from experience and I'm sure everyone does too, even though I can't tell him what to do since it's his choice and he needs to be ready if he chose to come out. I want to be there for him as a friend ONLY. supporting him from far away (like through texting). I never text him now and I do let him on that I'm only here as a friend without being rude. The reason why I want to be sure is because if he was truly out (which I very much doubt) I'd feel better to not communicate with him after I've let him down politely.I really appreciate that you took your time reading and listening to my problem lol. I hope if you guys could shed some light/info that would really help a lot. I accept any contributions and I thank you for it in advance :).
Where my gays at?
I live in a very conservative part of California where there seems to be very few openly gay people, and for obvious and good reasons. It's not exactly a good idea to be out and proud when there is literally a Trump sign on every other lawn. The people here are very much close minded and religious with the mentality of "I'm right, you're wrong. Fuck you, the government can't tell me what's right or wrong, but I can tell other people what's right or wrong and use the government to impose that." They wonder why it's still hot in November while they fail to make the connection to climate change being the answer. They drive gigantic diesel trucks, modify them by putting either smokes stacks on them or just making exhaust pipe huge so that huge black clouds of smoke spew out while they run red lights. And in the process, they make the confederate flag waving in the truck bed almost fly off. I know it seems kind of silly to be asking where gay people are in California. I know where to move to find them and be with my kind, but for the time being while I live in his hell on earth, I guess I'm wondering where you are in this conservative Red Sea. Are any of you living in this place with me? If you are then you should automatically know what part of California I live in. I just want to know that I'm not alone here
How do I cope with this?
Tonight would be my 1 year anniversary, only he died on me. I don't know how I'm supposed to get over this shit, it's been 6 months and I'm still not. I'm not used to dealing with emotions which makes this 10 times worse 😕
Please tell me i'm not alone
(Please ignore grammar mistakes if there was one) Are there any gays who love watching male fighting vids and have socks fetish at the same time? First of all,I'm NOT a violent person. I dont know how it's grown on me,but since my childhood,i've got this strong feeling about male violence,back then,i couldn't figure out what was the feeling about. Older,i started to really love those fighting videos,and males only,because i sensed that those fighting vids really make me horny,and it's the time when socks fetish comes in. I feel confused and lonely,the people share the same interests with me is so rare that i can't find someone to talk to. Therefore,if you have the same hobbies as me.
Coming out vs Getting Kicked Out
Hello everyone, I'm a 20-year-old full-time university student who has come to a crossroads in my life. Since 13 I knew I was attracted to both males and females, but it was not until college that I explored myself. Coming out to my parents was never really a thought I considered until these past few months. I pride myself in honesty and being straight up with everything, so having not come out to my parents has been weighing on me for a long time especially ever since I started college. I'm middle eastern and come from a very strict catholic background, and my parents have always been morally objective above all other things, including their love for each other and me. They've supported me with a free place to stay and food for the longest time while I finance my own education 100% percent. Where the problem for me lies however is in the fact I know that whenever the time comes I tell them that i am bisexual they will cut off all ties to me. You see that is not exactly what I'm afraid of, it's actually more so the moral conundrum I face. Without coming to my parents I feel like I am betraying them by taking the resources they give me while hiding a significant secret from them. At the same time I know that if I do come out to them, I will be a homeless full-time student with loans, no car, and a much tougher situation. I feel like I'd be a scumbag if I were to drop a bomb on them like that after graduating and earning a well-paying job. They'd feel like they wasted their money on me, and probably disgusted. I'm not ashamed of who I am but I am ashamed of hiding who I am from my parents due to financial circumstances. I also don't blame my parents for who they are or how they were raised, it's just the way of the world. Anyways I'm just really perplexed and I'm unsure if I should follow my heart or my intuition here. I believe the right thing would be to tell my parents now and accept what happens but that would of course be the hardest thing to do :( Advice reddit?
I kinda hate being gay
I really do hate being gay. I accept that’s what I am and I cannot change it, but nevertheless I don’t like it. I can’t have my own, natural children (of which I would want a lot). I’m expected to conform to this mold of what a gay man is (liberal, flamboyant, finely groomed). I hate that everything in the “gay world” is based around sex. I hate the idea of anonymous sex or even sex outside of a long-term relationship. It just feels like most gay men are sluts.And crucially, my dating pool is extremely small. I know about four gay guys, none of which I would want to date. Now granted, I am young and live in a small-medium sized town, but I feel like I should have had at least one boyfriend by my age (18). I feel like I’m missing out on a crucial part of being a teenager, learning how to handle a relationship.Also, I really hate talking about gay things. For instance if a friend asks what kind of guys I like or something like that, I always get really timid and quiet. It just feels inappropriate I guess. Like a guy shouldn’t be talking that way about other guys.Well anyway that was my rant. Sorry if it was a bit incoherent.
Alabama Country
Does anyone truly understand the difficultly of living in AL, And not the city, I'm talking backwoods, over the creek type stuff, Like omg it's insanely ugh. Like I have no idea who is here
found a colleague is gay but the type I like, how should I do?
I found him on a gay software, yes the very type I like. But it's embarrassing to work together. To keep a distance or pursue, how to do it?
Men who came out as gay later in life, was it easy?
For men who came out as homosexual later in life (later doesnt mean college, it means 40s or 50s). How was it? Was it difficult? Relief afterwards? Regrets?
Q from straight male-Right side ear piercing- gay?
I met this guy, who seems cool, we could be friends. We're spending more time together. A while back I noticed that he had a piercing on his right ear, which is said to be a signal that one can be gay. Tonight we were talking outside the dorms and he got really close and made intense eye contact, like he was asserting then and there that he wanted to be on the top. We kept talking, though I felt slightly awkward by this, so I was like, "alright, see you around", and left. So with that and the earring, I put two and two together and realized he might have wanted more. I am a feminine looking male, I wear feminine clothing, and I been told I sound gay when I talk. It's just who I am, I can't help it. I also look at guys crothes sometimes (bad habit) so I could see why I could come across as a homosexual, but I'm not. The question is, to a gay dude, does the earring mean that he is 100% gay, and if he is, would being around him just lead him on? He's a great guy and I would hate to stop being around him for that reason. Thanks
2016. október 29., szombat
Gay friends?
Hey guys -- this may be a bit of a ramble, so I appreciate you bearing with me.It feels like I can't have gay friends. The ones I do seem to only want to initiate sex. We can't hang out, we can't do normal things without them initiating it to one other thing.Don't get me wrong, I like sex. But I'd also just like a close community.Maybe it's Seattle. Maybe it's me. I dunno.Thanks for reading.
Confused, and need advice
So I am not totally sure if I'm gay. Im 15, and a sophomore in high school. I had a huge crush on this girl in 8th grade, but since then I haven't really had much interest in girls. For one, I totally don't get the attraction of boobs. Like at all. I do definitely find guys attractive, I definitely want to have sex with a guy at some point. But I also go to an all guys school, so I'm not totally sure if I'm actually gay, or in a sort of brainwashed state. Also, I can totally admire a girl. I can recognize when one is hot, or pretty, but it's not necessarily sexual. My mind does tend to flip flop between, Im totally gay, Im not gay (maybe bi), and Im probably just brainwashed due to the all guys school. But then when I was porn, its gay porn about 95% of the time and when I do watch some straight porn, im not generally as turned on as i am by gay porn. Anyway, I just have no idea what's going on and was wondering if you all have gone through this, how it turned out, and a second opinion without emotional connections. Also, I have a friend, that I know is gay. Our friendship has also been kind of weird over the years, not bad, just different than all my other guy friends. Id be totally fine with being out, at least to my friends and stuff, and am totally comfortable with being gay, I just don't want to come out and realize that Im not gay and have it all be fucked up. So should i tell him? And what other advice do you have?
How do you come out to new people?
I've been out of the closet since 19 but I always have trouble coming out to new people I meet. Most people don't think I'm gay when they meet me so how can I casually come out to them without making it awkward?
Norwegian show with a gay main character
Norway's most popular show stars a gay teen (17yo) as the main character. In the newest episode he has his first kiss with a guy, and also shows a long scene of them kissing and cuddling. I am so happy that the lgbt community is being represented more (Though I wish they would show some of the other sides of the lgbt community, such as asexuals, bisexuals etc.)I just love these scenes, so I put together a little montage if you're interested. Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HoYzIx_XQJQ
Out of LTR and sexually dysfunctional
Mid 30's gay guy here. A month ago my 5 year relationship with a guy ended. The sex with him was close to nil the last couple years of our relationship, so to cope during that time, I basically masturbated my way to sexual fulfillment, often arguably over doing it (edging a lot) to porn, camming with random guys, and sex chatting.Now that I'm out dating again, the guys I'm meeting can cum easily from a blow job and stay hard while we're fooling around. But when it comes to me getting hard and getting off, I feel like I've become sexually dysfunctional because I often can't get fully hard being with them, or it takes me forever to cum, or sometimes I can't cum and they give up, or I have to jerk myself off. I feel embarrassed by it.If I'm not looking at porn, chatting or stroking my own cock alone, I pretty much find it difficult to stay hard with a guy or get off. I've been really attracted to the guys I meet. I think porn and sex chatting have fried my sexual wiring.I can imagine the obvious answer is that I cut back or abstain from masturbation for a month and see where that leads. I'll try that. I just want to hear from other guys that I'm not alone. It depresses me I'm like this.
My ex left me for sugar daddies.
About a month ago my ex broke up with me via txt. Slowly over the past few weeks he had been opening up more and his reason being was for financial stability. Then a couple weeks ago i find out he signed up on a site(didn't mention any names) and was meeting up with a gentlemen to sort out arrangements. I didn't take it very well.... i still cant seem to take it well.It feels like he was only interested in me for some small cash here and there, a place to stay for nearly a year and a vent to lower his debts. Looking back i feel like i was used for all that and more. For a while i felt like he really didn't like me even though he tried to hang out with me nearly everyday(even ones where i was exhausted from work and wanted to be alone) told me he loved me, and promised things he clearly broke on the day he dumped me.I know guys come and go, but to give a brief background on us. We met 10 years ago and between those years it's been meet ups and hang outs to making out and empty attempts at starting something that constantly was interrupted by other guys(ex's or new flings). If anything this was the first year we actually tried(i'll admit.. poorly on my part).I guess i just mostly needed to vent. Ultimately i feel a bit lost...
Hey Reddit, stalker is following me.
What does it mean if there's a guy stalking and sneakily leaves a page on my car seat. The page says he thinks I'm attractive and wants to be my power bottom. Should I respond?
Why does everyone have to agree with you?
I understand everyone wants equality and rights,but saying it's hate is crazy when someone is against gay marriage. We don't have to agree with them. Like just know this one thing: Just because you are gay doesn't mean people don't like you. I don't think homosexuality is right but that isn't what I judge by. I would rather be friends with a nice gay guy than a crazy straight guyHope this makes sense.
One confused gay guy
I'm a gold-star gay and have been really lucky to have found a great guy. We've been together in a monogamous relationship for the last 5 years and counting. Recently (or may be not so recently) I've been slowly realizing that I might also be sexually attracted to girls.Deep down I know that I prefer guys and I love my bf with all my heart. However.... I can't help but regret that I didn't experiment more when I was younger. I dated and made-out with girls when I was in highschool but not much beyond that.My bf has had some personal insecurities which have manifested in him having trust issues with me hanging out with other gay guys. Over the past year, we have made much progress in this area and he finally feels comfortable with me making friends with gay guys (even via grindr). I'm scared that if I told him any of this that it would just make him worried, and the last thing I want to do is hurt him in any way.I know that sexuality is this fluid thing, so I hope that there might be others out there that have gone through similar feelings. If so, was this just a phase for you? Do you still have regrets or have you come to terms with it never happening?
Can you help me accept that I'm gay?
That sounds dumb, I know it does. But hear me out. I know I like guys, not just in a sexual way but in a genuine I-want-to-share-my-life-with-another-man way. But for some reason I can't quite convince myself of it. It's really bugging me.I know for 98% sure that it doesn't have to do with me not wanting to be gay, because I just want to accept myself how I am. Do you guys know a way?
The chemsex epidemic: what does it all mean?
I've been living in London for almost 4 years now and a lot of people feel that this city is sort of like a "ground zero" for the chemsex epidemic affecting gay men around the western hemisphere. And it is true: there are guys throwing sex parties pretty much everyday, drug dealers are a dime a dozen and everyone knows at least one person who has died from a GHB overdose. Crystal meth, which is almost exclusively a gay party drug here, as opposed to in the US, has become such a huge problem that there are now Crystal Meth Anonymous reunions every single day around the city and you won't find one straight person there. Is this epidemic, mostly related to big cities, just a natural consequence of this isolated digital society we are all a part of or is there something else behind it?
Gay Twin Brothers? Nope, just another creepy gay couple
Has anyone out there ever realised that in a lot of gay couples (A LOT) one looks almost exactly like the other physically? And am I the only one slightly creeped out by it? I know for a long time that we gay men have exaggerated narcissistic tendencies, something that begin as a defence mechanism I assume, but that is taking narcissism to a whole different level. I suppose it can be argued that it does happen on straight couples as well (Barbie & Ken exemplify that perfectly) but maybe it's more shocking on gay couples. I mean...one quick glance on Grindr and what is one of the most common requests? "Looking for similar". I don't know why this bothers me but it does, maybe because my ex bf's were all quite different from me physically. But if a guy chooses an almost identical twin to be his boyfriend, does that mean he has an incredibly high self esteem?
Guy from Grindr takes off condom in the middle of sex, STD/HIV scare?
I hooked up with a guy from Grindr just now. I found out that he took off his condom midway through anal, but he didn't ejaculate inside me.Apart from being angry, should I be really concerned about HIV/STDs?What steps would you guys recommend right now.
need someone to vent too
I have all these thoughts that I have and can't share with others that i know, and I just want someone that's gonna listen and give me advice(15 m gay)
"Straight" guy and "closet" gay guy
I'm a closet gay guy and I recently met this guy (let's call him X) and he was one of the new team leaders that is in charge of us (a group of 12 guys). He seems to be interested in me. I don't know what's he's thinking but he will always ask me to work out with him and I will always decline him. I know he isn't attached but I don't know about his sexuality and I don't intend to ask him or find out because I do not have any intention of coming out or dating anyone anytime soon. During team building activities, he will put his arm over my shoulders or use his hand and place it on my head (he's taller than me). Moreover, whenever there's a group discussion, X will tend to jokingly aim at me. During one of the trainings, coach asked me a question and I totally forgot about the answer. I just randomly gave an answer which I'm sure was wrong and X started laughing like crazy. The other guys started to tease me by saying X is my "big brother" because X will only do whatever I mention above to me and not to the other guys. I'm so confused because I don't know about his intentions and I'm afraid to ask him directly. Anyone here got any advice?
2016. október 28., péntek
Love and life advice [NSFW]
Hi there! I am "holly" and i am in my mid 20s and British I have always considered myself straight. I have a long distance GF of 9 years, about 3 months ago we hit a issue in our relationship involving her hiding me from her family. other then that everything was fine, when we met up the sex was..okay and fun. About a month ago i met this guy while playing a video game we got talking and shared skype pics and stuff became good friends really fast. Then things got weird. We started discussing fetishes and turns out he likes crossdressing but also likes being dominant, he started making jokes about making me wear diapers for him and me being his princess, normally id have ran, but i played along, i started to enjoy they way he spoke to me like that, i felt safe, cared for, loved. I noticed that i had feelings for him and...WANTED this. so once night i let him take control over skype...and it was the hottest "skype sex" ever, better then the real thing with my GF. A few days later i found him playing submissive to another guy, i was so angry but i didnt understand why, we hadnt said we where together, we couldn't be together i have a gf. it ended in a argument and he said he would stop talking to that guy. i find myself worrying all the time they he still is talking to him though. i dont really understand my feelings for him, but i know i love and want him. i don't know what to do at all. any advice is welcome before i go crazy!
What do you do when you're feeling lonely?
Recently, I've been going through periods of time where I just feel alone and unloved. What do you do if you go through this type of thing?
Gay men of Reddit: How do you know when a seemingly straight man (or one that hasn't come out yet) is gay and is hiding his sexuality?
What are some subtle cues? I think I am and have dated men in the closet without being able to tell what is going on (straight female)
What Some Are Places Other Than Gay Bars to Meet Other Guys?
I started college this semester and have been wanting to get more active into dating, which I've barely done. But the only places that I know in general cater to meeting other guys are bars, but I am not a partier type and really don't enjoy those environments. Are there any general types of "calmer " places for gay men to meet? Any specific places in Atlanta? Sorry, this is a bit broad. Still trying to figure out exactly what I'm looking for.
Gay USA 10/26/16
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Confused because of this Boy I like
Sorry for the long text! So, I have following problem: In august a boy (N.) messaged me through Grindr and we decided pretty quick to meet and go on a date. It was really nice and I began to really like him. We drove to the carnival and there we were able to make a video of ourselves, that he really wanted to have. The problem was, that two weeks later I had to go to France for at least 4 month for my studies (andof course I told himabout that). The next day he send it to me and posted it on his instagram. So as we were already texting, I told him that we could meet again if he wanted and he said, that even though he thinks that I'm a really cool guy, he doesn't think that we could be more. Scattered, but I told him that it's ok. A couple of days later I asked him if he wanted to meet and he immediately said yes, so we went out as friends (I think). When we were going through town, we met one of his friends and when she asked what he was doing there, he said "I'm on a... I'm here with a friend". It was clear that he was about to say "date". I was confused, but chose to not say anything. The same night, he reassured me, as part of our normal conversation, that we are going out just as friends (and by accident, we also met his twin-brother). That same night, when I went home, I cried my heart out, so the next day I decided to conftont him about the whole "I'm on a... (date)" thing, and he said again, that he would only see me as a friend, and that I shouldn't waste my time thinking about someone who isn't a big part of my life and probably will never be, because I said that I really like him (as in fell in love with)... But I decided that I wanted to sty friends with him. After more than a week (end of august) I went to France and after a couple of days later I wrote him to give me my french number and said to him that I we should meet when I visit home end of september/beginning of october. He did't answered at first, because he told me that he was meeting this boy (F.), but eventually said that we could meet, but only if it's not a date and if he's not too busy with work and university. Okay, I guess. Then we didn't talk for three weeks, and one week before coming back I asked him again if we could meet and he said that he still isn't sure because of university. During that week we talked quite a bit and eventually he wasn't dating that guy (F.) anymore (you can imagine how happy I was). I expected that he would say that he couldn't meet me, because he let me wait the whole week for a response regarding our "appointment". But the morning of the day that we wanted to meet he told me that he didn't want to cancel our apointment. So we met and had a really good time, talked the whole time and laughed a lot and we seemed to share a lot of opinions. We also talked about his ex and I said to him that he deserves someone better (and I had me in mind). During this time he asked if he could make a selfie of himself to send it to someone (M.) who apparently is the guy he is dating at the moment. Scattered, again, but he said he wasn't sure about him... When we said good bye, it seemed like he wanted more than a hug, he seemed confused. For the next two weeks we continued to text each other, even though I went to France again. He really opened up, and even told me things that I did'nt ask for or send me selfies, when I asked for pics of a town he visited. But it was always me playing the active part while texting. And in this time he saw M. only one time. One day, we were talking about dating again, and he really explained all his worries to me, like finding love and so on. But eventually told me that everything seems to be fine with M. although he is still unsure. At this point I felt emotionally empty. a couple of days later I was visiting home again (end of october), and asked if he wanted to do something. At first, it seemed like he had a bit of time, but then said, that he wasn't able because of his work and stuff, which he explained to me precisely. The problem is that I wanted to meet him (one last time) to set things straight, so that I could move forward or to see if he likes me too, because he acts strange. And it wasn't even that long time ago that I told him how I feel about him. And now this: I decides to follow this M. on instagram, but then decided to un-follow him, because it seemed creepy to me. And now M. is following me back and even watches my instastories. The strange part is, that I know, that M. saw the video which N. posted of our first date. Also.. I follow N. but he doesn't follow me back.Now a friend of mine thinks that everything will be alright between me and N., while others say that I should forget him, even though I feel the need to tell him again how I feel about him, that I'm in love with him. What do you think of this? what should I do?Sry for the lobg text. :P
When he says he is straight
So we started seeing each other a few weeks ago, and everything was going great. However, he told me yesterday that apparently he is doubting his sexuality, and feels that he is straight, even after being out and gay for 3 years. Not really sure what to think, feeling pretty crushed by it as I'd had a crush on him before hand and apparently he'd had one on me as well. Any suggestions as what to do?
Skype Times for GayBros?
Hey all. Any gaybros about that would be up for skyping tonight? Handsome boy next door 20 something here!Message me if you fancy?
Any gay Redditors over 35 or older here?
I'm just curious as I'm assuming that most gay Redditors seem younger. I like that you can find a community here but I can't help feeling older and at a different life stage somehow...(not meaning to be ageist so I hope I'm not coming off that way), just that it gets harder to make friends there older you get so it'll be nice to know I'm not the only one.
2016. október 27., csütörtök
Highschool student in need of something I can't have
Everyone else gets to walk around with the opportunities to have relationships with people they genuinely like and I just can't. Like I can get sex and everything with the small handful of gay guys at my school but it has gotten to a point where I want something MORE than that. I literally just want someone to cuddle with in the back of a pickup and watch the stars at night and go dance with and play those like secret games with and stuff like that but there just isn't any genuine gay guys at my school who are like NICE people. It's hard like I just wish I had more people to choose from because I've been so lonely recently despite having a lot of good friends because I just want that one guy to do those things with. Any advice? Thank you :)edit: ahh! so many downvotes sorry if this is a dumb post or anything i just came to this sub looking for advice.
Advice Need for Highschool who got rejected
I recently posted this: http://ift.tt/2eLBKAY story short, I asked another gay guy at me school out to a halloween party as a date, he was caught off guard by my question and was thinking of his schedule, I then told him I'd text him the details. Later, I do text him and his response is that he is flattered and appreciates the offer but is not interested. One of my friends at school that does track with him (my friend isn't that close at all though) said that he thinks he remmebered someone saying that the guy I asked out has a boyfriend from summer camp, but my friend said it could be false and he wasn't sure.Now that I have a reason for the rejection, I'm a little more at ease. I wasn't quite saddened so much as dissapointed at the rejection. Here is why. The dating population for gay guys is already small, ESCPECIALLY for high schoolers. On top of that, my type is not so common, at least mentally wise. There a lot of gay guys that like to party and drink and have fun and dont care about school, but that's not me. I like to have fun, but I don't drink or do drugs and I am acedemically focused. And so was my crush that I asked out.I felt that we were compatible, and I don't see how I can find other people that I'd be compatible with, at least at this age. Like I said in my other post, I know that there is a reason for this happening (Who knows? Maybe I'll meet someone at the lgbt part friday night) but I just don't know what to do.On top of that, how do I stop thinking about him? I still have feelings for him and I don't think that they'll go away until there is a reason to not have feelings for him.All in all, I'm just unsure. I'm lucky I'm in a place where its even POSSIBLE to be openly gay and have a possibility of dating, but I have no idea anymore. There's like a void inside me know, that I dom't know how to fill it. I'm luckyI haven't suffered from depression again after this (I tried to kill myself twice in 8th grade) but I just don't know. I used to fill that depressing void with video games, but that now seems artificial. Please help me, however you can.Also, if you read that all, you are an amazing person. Thanm you so much.
Deciding on Relationship
When you have had to decide between two relationships, and you can only have one, how did u decide? What were some factors that helped you decide? Did u tell the other person along the way? What do you think?
Selfies? Memes?
Home bored...thought maybe it would be cool to put a face with the ppl who reply to all the posts on here or maybe even post a funny meme...idk like I said bored...
Highschooler needs help after rejection
I recently posted this: http://ift.tt/2eLBKAY story short, I asked another gay guy at me school out to a halloween party as a date, he was caught off guard by my question and was thinking of his schedule, I then told him I'd text him the details. Later, I do text him and his response is that he is flattered and appreciates the offer but is not interested. One of my friends at school that does track with him (my friend isn't that close at all though) said that he thinks he remmebered someone saying that the guy I asked out has a boyfriend from summer camp, but my friend said it could be false and he wasn't sure.Now that I have a reason for the rejection, I'm a little more at ease. I wasn't quite saddened so much as dissapointed at the rejection. Here is why. The dating population for gay guys is already small, ESCPECIALLY for high schoolers. On top of that, my type is not so common, at least mentally wise. There a lot of gay guys that like to party and drink and have fun and dont care about school, but that's not me. I like to have fun, but I don't drink or do drugs and I am acedemically focused. And so was my crush that I asked out.I felt that we were compatible, and I don't see how I can find other people that I'd be compatible with, at least at this age. Like I said in my other post, I know that there is a reason for this happening (Who knows? Maybe I'll meet someone at the lgbt part friday night) but I just don't know what to do.On top of that, how do I stop thinking about him? I still have feelings for him and I don't think that they'll go away until there is a reason to not have feelings for him.All in all, I'm just unsure. I'm lucky I'm in a place where its even POSSIBLE to be openly gay and have a possibility of dating, but I have no idea anymore. There's like a void inside me know, that I dom't know how to fill it. I'm luckyI haven't suffered from depression again after this (I tried to kill myself twice in 8th grade) but I just don't know. I used to fill that depressing void with video games, but that now seems artificial. Please help me, however you can.Also, if you read that all, you are an amazing person. Thank you so much.
Research Paper - Feedback Wanted
Hello everyone,For my psychology class, I need feedback from someone who is willing to answer a few questions on sexual orientation development.The questions are:1)When did you know you were gay?2)How did you know you were gay?3)Can you briefly describe what this was like for you, to come to have an understanding of yourself as gay, as someone who is perhaps perceived as different from the presumed “norm” or our dominant culture?4)What have been some of the positive aspects of this experience?5)What have been some of the difficult aspects of this experience?6)If the world were to drastically change tomorrow and all the people of your same-sex preference would disappear forever more from the planet and you would continue to live on the rest of your life as usual, do you think you might ever fall in love with someone (again)? Do you think that you could become interested in being sexual with someone eventually or that you would want to become sexual again with someone eventually?
Brother in law nude pics
So hear me out. My brother in law is supposedly straight. He asks for help every now and then as being a young 21yr old he has been forced to be on couches since his mom left the state (he stayed with his uncle then). She isn't a deadbeat she just knows he's an adult and should do for himself but time to time has helped him out.I married his brother. We are a gay couple early 20s. Been together 5 years. His brother has been always super attractive. I got jealous of his exes to experience such a nice guy. Don't get me wrong my husband is wonderful I wouldn't trade him for the world. We have some WHAT of an open relationship but still monogamous. We've joked about 3 some or someone pounding him or I while the other watches. Etc. anywho. His brother recently asked for money, which if I can do it I gladly help I don't care. But yesterday he asked for help to get groceries I didn't answer back because I was in the middle of sending it, all of a sudden, he sends 2 nude pics and promises to send me a video of him cumming today if I sent him money. As a gay guy who's been awkwardly attracted to his brother in law I got mixed emotions... I've always wondered what it looked like. But didn't really expect to ever see it. I never told my husband as he has a close relationship with his brother and they hang out a lot. I saw the photos and immediately got a hardon... like an intense I need to do something type hardon. I pleasured myself to the photos... now i feel bad but don't know if I should. My husband and I don't consider those types of things technically cheating. But, I'm having a feeling of falling for his brother as well. Recently I even dreamt about them getting sexual then me getting in the middle. But idk... is he gay? Bi? What? How do I do this? What do I do?
Relationship Advice
So I have a problem. I have been in a committed relationship for 10 years with a great guy who is only a couple years younger then me. We have a great relationship and I have no intention of stepping out or opening the relationship. My problem is that I have a huge dad/son fantasy. I get off to it constantly and my innocent getting off has been leading to searching profiles on Craigslist and gay dating sites and getting off on the fantasy of meeting up with the guy and doing stuff. My fear is that one day I am not going to stop at just fantasizing. This is affecting our sex life and our relationship as a whole bu
I'm a closet gay, what advice would you have for me?
It's extremely difficult to find other gays where I live. I live in a farming community where everyone knows each other, and also seems to worship Jesus or have some form of unspoken homophobia. In my community, and especially in my family, it's frowned upon to do anything out of the ordinary. The ordinary pretty much being anything the bible tells you to be. I do happen to have 1 cousin who is gay that I never get to see, and is in a relationship, but I haven't talked to him years, and I'm not sure how I would even go about talking to him since it's the only thing I really have in common with him. My other option I have is to go to my friends.That being said, I've had the same group of friends ever since early grade school, I'm 21 now, but I've never tried to admit anything about myself to them. I constantly fear rejection or that I may even made fun of. They're good friend's who typically don't get reduced to this type of behavior, and probably wouldn't even care who I wanted to date, but something always holds me back from bringing up to them, probably just the fact that I don't like being treated differently based on my beliefs.Meeting new people is extremely hard for me to do since I don't really live near places with large social gatherings. The closest gay bars to me are about an hour away in each direction, so it would almost have to be a day trip just to go to one and meet some people. I wouldn't mind doing so, but I work 40 hours a week and only get 2 days off a week, which still leaves plenty of time to meet people, however, there's another factor that hinders my life style.I happen to have issues with anxiety and depression, and both always seem to hit me like a bullet. I get anxious when I have the opportunity to meet new people, feeling afraid or scared of what might happen. Then there's my depression that tells me that I'm worthless if I feel rejected, that I'm alone, deserve to be alone and nobody wants me. This then makes it hard for me to go out and be myself, and I instead sit at him loathing myself and my state of mind. Sometimes, I feel like I actually don't even know myself most of the time.I really just want any advice that you guys can give. I've felt this way for years, but haven't been able to successfully follow up on my desires. I don't expect anything life changing, but I have no one to talk to or set an example for me. Also, this is honestly my first reddit post, and I'm really looking forward to any feedback I can get.
I wonder
I often see gay gays getting along with girls as if they are partnered. But why?Is this because gay guys are similar to girls in terms of loving men? They are not gay but bisexual?I don't believe that friendship exists between men and women but love.It's curious so give me your opinions.
Gay in a college town
So I am looking for someone to date and I am not sure where to look as I am living in a college town and am used to city life. I cannot find anyone on OKC, POF, or on campus, etc. Any recommendations on where to look to meet guys? Does Tinder work? Other dating apps?
living in a Conservative , small town in turkey.
hello everyone! , ham is the name (no pun intended) , syrian 18 YO, 4 years living in hatay/turkey in a town called antakya , in all honesty .THIS TOWN SUCCC!grindr needs you to have proxy servers so you can access it which means rip location , hornet is basically a place where people go "XX person wants access to your private pictures" as a start of convo , almost everyone there is basically sex craving , which i am not judging , but i am sadly not like them , i have a couple self issues as well (being labeled a clingy or creepy person most of the time) because i was brought up in a wrong , non eventful way of life .i currently avoid sex dates because of multiple reasons , IDK how much a person can be evil at this era (recording sex ,cyber bullying after , sharks going after their virgin non experienced prey etc) , as i think i am a bottom myself , i get scared from illnesses OR embarrassing accidents (to put it bluntly , shit and farts ;) ) , so i freeze and refuse .i have what you might call a cute face , but gets ruined by my non-fitting body , by that i mean my 90+ kg weight does not fit ME , so i don't mean to offend the other lovely bears :) , i am striving from depression , ...eh self-dangering urges with a lack of an understanding therapist , i am doing all i can though.i just , need your advices and notes on this , state , i am still after all an 18 YO guy who only experienced , bad things if i may call it(i am not the only one in the world who experienced hard issues , no need to remind me of that). thank you in advance !P.S: the reason i am using gay apps is because the place is homophobic , and for some reason hornet is a famous app that turkish (and syrians) use here .
How to Gaydar, The Sequel
Hey, remember How to Gaydar 1?1: Play music from musicals on speaker. Grab any dude that sings along, proceed to Step 2. Defying Gravity is a popular choice, but anything from Hamilton is also acceptable. Disney songs can also be used.2: How much hair gel/makeup are they wearing? If they're wearing quite a lot, proceed to Step 33: How fabulous are they? How much pink or rainbow are they wearing? Are they fashionable? If so, proceed to step four.Here're some more!Step 4: Wear tight white pants(Think Fiyero from 'Wicked') Pretty much transparent ¯\(ツ)/¯Step 5: Kidnap them and tie them up in a room while forcing them to watch Brokeback Mountain This needs no explanationStep 6: Cast a gayness spell Chant the sacred chant of the homosexual, updated edition:O mighty Harris, king of gays Place this straight boy under your gaze With erotic wonders you must amaze This man who doesn't like dick I need my dating fix So I'm throwing divine power of broadway Into the fucking mix Amazing! Wow, you're food at this already!Step 7: Whip your dick out ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)Step 8: Order a pizza with extra sausage to be delivered at his door after getting him drunk. He'll assume he must be gay because he wanted the sausage. Step 9: Fucking ask Oh, whoops, too hard?...Enjoy! <3
Blatant karma whoring: How 2 Gaydar 2 (pls to give more gold)
Hey, remember How to Gaydar 1?1: Play music from musicals on speaker. Grab any dude that sings along, proceed to Step 2. Defying Gravity is a popular choice, but anything from Hamilton is also acceptable. Disney songs can also be used.2: How much hair gel/makeup are they wearing? If they're wearing quite a lot, proceed to Step 33: How fabulous are they? How much pink or rainbow are they wearing? Are they fashionable? If so, proceed to step four.Here're some more!Step 4: Wear tight white pants(Think Fiyero from 'Wicked') Pretty much transparent ¯\(ツ)/¯Step 5: Kidnap them and tie them up in a room while forcing them to watch Brokeback Mountain This needs no explanationStep 6: Cast a gayness spell Chant the sacred chant of the homosexual, updated edition:O mighty Harris, king of gays Place this straight boy under your gaze With erotic wonders you must amaze This man who doesn't like dick I need my dating fix So I'm throwing divine power of broadway Into the fucking mix Amazing! Wow, you're food at this already!Step 7: Whip your dick out ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)Step 8: Order a pizza with extra sausage to be delivered at his door after getting him drunk. He'll assume he must be gay because he wanted the sausage. Step 9: Fucking ask Oh, whoops, too hard?...Enjoy! <3
2016. október 26., szerda
LOEV | International Trailer|official HD 2016- Been waiting for a movie from india
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qLGmo6kc6LQ
26 [M4M] Asian RacePlay Newbie looking for a Chill White Dude
Hello guys! I'm an educated athletic Asian dude and looking for a chill white guy (in my age or younger) who can gradually/safely introduce me to RacePlay and help me explore my unexplored dark fantasies...I respect my culture and heritage, and most importantly, I have good self-respect!Though, I recently discovered and now fully admit that I am very curious to explore RacePlay scene with a chill white dude who respects me and my needs, and who helps me gradually explore my dark fantasies! I'm happy to talk all the details via kik or e-mail! :)Add tomanderson250 on kik. Thanks!
Women in Relationships
First I want to say that this post in no way is meant to be sexist.Anyway I wanna hear your guyses opinion on this thought I had earlier today.Ive often wondered why so many men are straight. Do they feel getting married and having children is the ultimate goal, the american dream? Do they feel they need to marry a girl in order to not be shamed by culture? Do they really want to be with a woman?How many of them are really happy in their relationship with a woman?
Grindr guys disappearing? Help:(
I was really connected to this one guy on grindr, we talked every day and really started to develop something. recently he said he was going to try to reboot the app, and then the next day our convo is gone. it reminds me of what its like to be blocked but I dont think he couldve blocked me after all the talking we did. did he delete his account? is it possible to find him? He doesn't live in my area so I can't see him on my cascade. thoughts?
Favorite type?
Part curiosity, part poll kindof deal, post your 'type' of guy here. If you use this format for efficiency and clarification this would be great:Physical: Body type, relative height/weight, eye/hair color, anything about their body.Character: Personality, briggs-meyers type, favorite types of activities, basically anything NOT about their body.Keep it SFW, other than that put whatever you like!
Minimalist pride clothing? (x-post from /r/askgaybros)
I think most of the gay pride clothing out there is either unattractive, poor quality, or both. We can do better, guys.Does anyone have suggestions of some cool pride clothing/hats? I'm looking for a minimalist vibe, like this, in particular.Thanks!!
Depressed and Alone in Japan
Don’t know where else to turn so here we go.I grew up completely closeted in a small town in the US and developed depression from a early age because of my self-hatred/homophobia/loneliness/whatever. Managed to hide it from everyone and never sought any kind of help. Kept telling myself that I needed to find a way out of that town and move to a place where I can safely test the waters outside the closet.Through some voodoo, I managed to get accepted to a university in Japan and I moved there a few years ago. A new beginning, just what I needed. After awhile I came out to some of my closer friends here and started to lurk around the Grindr, Tinder, and the like. Became totally turned off by the local hookup scene. Not sure if my life of solitude has given me a fear of sex or if I’m somewhere on the asexual spectrum. Either way, this has been a barrier to me finding any kind of closeness to another human being and this is something that I desperately need, especially right now.My self diagnosed depression usually comes in waves and it hits strong a few times a year. It has decided to hit rather hard over the past few weeks and I have been struggling to cope. Japan isn’t known for its support of mental health and I don’t really have any gay friends that I can talk to. My uni has no real psychiatric support to speak of and no LGBT orgs that are foreigner friendly. My friends do what they can, but they can’t really relate to what I’m going through. I feel completely alone.I’m tired of feeling like shit all the time. Although I generally like living here, I’m not sure that it is the healthiest place for someone needs love but not sex. Or is there a caring, understanding, and accepting community here that I haven’t found yet? Help.
Got with my straight friend
For 6 years I’ve had a crush on my friend; he’s been MY kinda guy, caramel skin tone, muscly torso, great ass, he’s got it all but for the last year I’ve been telling myself that id only be his friend bc nothing will ever happen with him.So to start, my parents went on holiday to Portugal last week for 7 days (Sunday to Sunday) and I was told I can have one friend round at a time, which was cool by me. So I invited the guy over, we had some food, shared a bottle of wine and we were just sat in my room on my bad talking and messing about. Now im kinda known in my sixth form for being able to give a good massage, and outta the blue this guy asks for a massage which I got no issue with so I use this 'Everything Balm’ I got which warms and relaxes the muscles in the applied areas. he takes off his jumper and lays front first on my bed and I massage his back, now because his back and torso is so thin and his bum is so big I had to ask him to pull down his trousers a bit so that I could get to all of his lower back which is where he wanted me to focus on the most. He then asks me to do his legs and so I have him remove his joggers so he is just in his boxers; after I finish the back of his legs I offer to do the front of his legs, to which he tells me its kinda awkward bc he has a semi and that isn’t awkward to me for obvious reasons. so he turns on his back and pulls down his boxers and he DID NOT have a semi and I know this because the man was hung like a bull I shit you not.This guy then asks for a groin massage which I do for him np; one thing then led to another and we had sex. we talked about it afterwards, about will it happen again, what if it happens again, will it affect our friendship etc etc. he has spoken to me about twice since it happened (19th oct 16).What should I do next? I want to get with him but I also respect his distance and boundaries. any advice is welcome
Gay and in the Army
Just making an observation. I know that there are a lot of guys out there that are appealed by seeing a man in uniform, nothing wrong with that.I've noticed when I was younger and serving under "Don't Ask, Don't Tell" (the old policy that prevent LGBT members from serving openly in the military or otherwise be separated other than honorably). It's pretty obvious that most young soldiers just want to fuck and hardly seek long lasting relationships. Admittedly, I shared a similar mindset, but I wanted something of subsistence. I've met a guy and we were engaged for after 5 years. Things didn't work out between us and we went our different ways.From my experience, I've noticed that young soldier just want to hook up while soldiers around my age (I'm 29) are already married. A lot of them have married women denying the fact that they're gay or are married to a man but their relationship is superficial.I feel lonely and like I've missed out on wonderful men. I've met many wonderful guys who I would have liked to be with lasting relationships, but Army Life usually gets in the way (by training or moving me across the world).
What's your dream bf nationality?
Mine is American (I'm British). I could listen to Americans talk for hours on end about anything and I love my name being said in an American accent. Whenever I'm on my PS4 and I'm playing with my US friends I just love hearing them talk. I also love the American way of life, the passion and patriotism.Do you really want to date anyone from a certain part of the world?
Talking to girls
Hey guys. For a queer dude with brothers and mostly straight guy friends, I feel like the biggest strain on my social life is having good social skills w women/women presenting folks. Like i was born with the part of the brain that doesnt know how to do that. Any tips? I think if ive learned anything though its that girls dont like nice guys!!!!! Being serious/kind of a dick really has helped keep the conversation going. Any other pointers? I work/school with alot of ladies and its awkward, need to turn it around.
Finding someone to date
I'm from switzerland and being gay actually isn't very hard, because it's tolerated, but anyways people still think bad of you if you say them you're gay, that's why especially around my area are only a few people outed as gay. And that way I'm not very successful in getting any date, I mean there is an online platform for LGBT that's something like facebook, but there aren't that much people. It doesn't help that I'm a pretty shy person and not very social. Most of the time I'm spending time at the computer anyways... But there are so many cute guys I see, should I just walk up to them and be like: "Hey, are you gay?", or what? I'd be too shy for this anyways, so... These Party's that are organized for LGBT aren't really cool, most of the people there are just jerks or something like that. What should I do to find a partner? (As I said, I'm from switzerland, so my english might not be the best)
For anyone who still has doubts about Milo Yiannopoulos not caring about gay men and their interests....(WATCH ESPECIALLY STARTING AT 1:04:00)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEHdOJMUXQI&t=1h01m49s
2016. október 25., kedd
Curious
Straight guy here looking to talk to a feminine gay 19-25 years old for some fun conversation.
Gay sex and the obsession with Uncut Men?
Not to say all gay men prefer Uncut men, but I've noticed a high interest in the gay community when it comes to Uncut men. Why is that? In my opinion a coc* is a coc* regardless of it being Uncut or not.
Gay crush
Okay so here's the situation:There's this guy that goes to a school about 20 minutes away from me. I've been told by multiple people that all of the signs point to him being gay or bi. His girlfriend recently broke up with him and he posted his snap on Instagram so I decided to give it a shot. He added me back and I've tried messaging him once a day for about 3 days with "Hey" and I've gotten no reply. I'm honestly so confused because I'm openly gay and he might be weirded out by this whole situation. I really just want to get to know him but what do I do if we won't even answer me?
Ama with an ex-gay man
Hello I am an ex-gay man who has been touched by the hand of God. I would like to offer my knowledge by allowing anybody to ask me any question related to gay affairs. Thank you and have a nice day.
Confession
I know I've written a lot of pieces like this, and you guys might be getting angry at me that I can't get over my negativity. But this is how I help myself.Purifying my pain on paper.Depression is everywhere. Depression is being reminded every time you see two people in love that you are different. Depression is listening to love songs wondering if you’ll ever understand what it feels like to be insecure of losing someone you never had. Depression is wondering who will love someone that can’t love themselves, thinking about all the pleasures that love can give that you will never feel.The things I long for are socially unacceptable.And so I succumb to shame before I can even say my crushes name. Depression is crying in your room when everyone is asleep, trying to muffle your cries so no one will hear. Depression is leaving breadcrumbs of your depression everywhere for people to find, in the hope that someone will realise and help you back onto your feet again. Depression is listening to thinking out loud, fantasising about resting your head against your lovers beating heart, but remembering that it’s sick and that I should feel ashamed for these feelings of love.A flower unfurling toward the sun like it was always supposed to do, but being poisoned with shame because of it.I can’t say my crushes name. Wouldn’t dare. The horror of revealing the truth to anyone would leave me paralysed in my bed for weeks. Nothing scares me anymore. Nothing could. Nothing is as terrifying as the fear of losing everyone I’ve ever loved just because of the feelings I cannot control within me. I poison myself everyday. Take another pill of self hate to wash those feelings away until I am numb in my bed, watching the world with bitterness and resentment that I could never be like you. That I was never born like you, and could be congratulated by society with marriage and euphoria for the love I feel. I am so alone all the time.Things that get me through the day are watching people I love through my phone, pretending that they are singing to me in the same room. That perhaps I was still in high school and everything wasn’t as painful as it is now, and I was in the music rooms with you, singing on piano while you played guitar and sang. I picture you smiling, your boyish charm and the freckles on your neck and face all too perfect in the light from the window. Your hair, perhaps a little too long, but perfect nonetheless, sprinkled across your forehead and falling over your eyes, with you gently brushing it aside so that you can look at me and smile once again. The way your hand strums the guitar, so effortlessly and so casually, like the arm of a tree swaying in the wind. I could kiss that hand, but I feel guilty for even admitting that. The way your top button at the front of your shirt is left undone and I can see the veins in your neck protrude every time you strain for a high note. It’s perfect. The way your face winces and distorts beautifully every time the chords ascend, to then dissolve into a smile of embarrassment which is all too wonderful to comprehend.But it’s only a thought. Only a dream that I’ve never felt. Only because I can’t handle the judgment. I can’t handle it. Even now, I can picture my relatives looking at me, thinking I’m a pansy. I’m a pussy, a coward, a faggot. Oh, the horrifying words paralyse me to my room. They make me never want to see the light again. I Imprison myself in my room, in my own mind, only to look out through my glass window and wonder what life could be like. I know what you say, I’m a coward for not being me and being true to who I am, but I can’t do it. My mum, my dad, what will they think of me. My mum, crying, wondering how I turned out this way, shaking her head in despair. The pain all too strong in her heart. The only thing she can do is turn away and refuse to talk to me, because every time she looks at me, tears like thousands of tiny shards of broken glass well in her eyes. And I can only look down in shame, wanting to kill myself again.I’m so afraid and depressed. I don’t know whats worse, the anxiety or the depression. Save me someone. Someone make me feel something again. I am so alone. Help me please. Mum, Forgive me for the way that I am. I don’t want this pain anymore. Forgive me mum.
Dating in high school?
I know I might be in a situation where finding a date would be near impossible, but I really want to be intimate with a person (also teenage hormone= I want the D) but I live in a town where people aren't really 'out' publicly, and I am not social at all. I am trying earnestly to improve my social skills, but does anyone have any other tips on how to find a date?
[NSFW]Used hair removal cream first time.
Hello ladies and gents. So two days ago and today I used a hair removal cream on my ass. The results are satisfying, however they came with some consequences.My ass stings. My anus is fine but I got sort of red dots around my butt that sort of look like acne or zits. Is there anything I can do with this? It isnt really comfortable sitting anywhere, as it stings annoyingly and I feel like even though I removed the hair, my ass is still ugly.
Blow jobs
I hope this isn't too gross, if so, apologies all round. But, I love giving my boyfriend a bj, except at the end, where his cum is really bitter and unpleasant. Is there anything he can eat, or do, to make it taste better?
Asking a guy out at high school
So I'm a sophmore in High School, and I'm going to ask this guy out tomorrow. I know he is gay, and we are friendly with eachother, but we aren't really part of the same friend groups. The thing is, I have no idea how to ask him out. I have 5th period choir with him (whcih is right before a 40 minute lunch break) and I also have 7th period chem and 8th period gym (8th is the last period in the day) with him. When do I ask him out? What do I say? So far, my best plan is to ask him after school "Do you want to get some ice cream in town together after school sometime?" That way, its up to him whether its a date or just friends, but it does sound like a date. Thoughts? Advice?
Need help with a crush
Sorry, if this is a long post, but I want to be sure to include the details :)So I'm an 18 year old guy, gay and am currently in my last year of high school (At least the norwegian equivalent of high school). I came out two years ago, and had a little crush on a guy in my class. From there it has only escalated. At this point I am so in love with him that I can't stop thinking about him. His cute smile, blue eyes, his deepish voice and incredible personality. We are pretty good friends and talk a bit. The problem is that he is most likely straight. Lately I've noticed that he's been looking more at me, though. Like sometimes when I take a glimpse at him, he'll already be looking at me. Sometimes he smiles and makes a funny face, and sometimes he quickly looks away. So my question is, what do I do? Do I talk to him about my feelings or do I try to ignore my feelings for him?
I Have No Idea What I Want
In the past 3 or 4 months or so I have come to terms with the fact that I am bi after denying it for a long time. Now that I am more comfortable with the idea of being attracted to men it has sparked my curiosity about pursuing a relationship with another man.My problem however is that I currently have a girlfriend of over 3 years. I have told her about the fact that I am bi, which kind of bothers her but she is willing to at least act okay with it and not let it mess up our relationship. My girlfriend means a lot to me but I cant help this nagging feeling of wanting to try being with a man.Im a very logical person when it comes to lots of things so Im not the best at dealing with emotions, especially my own. I cant decide what I want to do. Im afraid that I will give into this nagging feeling and then regret it once its all said and done, or that I will end up not following it and regretting it later.I just cant figure out what I want.
Help?
Alright, so I met this guy on a dating app. We've been talking for over 2 weeks now. He's a pretty nice guy, we have some things in common, which is awesome! I don't really get on the app much, so we text. The thing is that he doesn't really respond back with much.. I'll ask a question or something and he won't give me more than a few words most of the time. Usually I have to be the one who starts the conversation or there will be none. I don't know if I should keep talking to him and hope we could actually be friends or something, or just stop completely. He's probably one of the few guys who I met that doesn't want anything sexual from the beginning of the conversation.
Interested in your thoughts
Hello everyone,I'm currently doing a community services course and I have to do a talk on a topic of diversity. The topic given to me is the right for gay marriage.I'm just looking to get some thoughts on the topic of marriage from this community if possible, all input is valid. Thank youWhy is the title of "marriage" so important? Does the term "Civil Union" feel less official?What rights have you personally been denied due your relationship?Do you feel there are benefits to a same sex marriage that don't exist in a hetero marriage?Do you believe there is a middle ground on this issue?Sorry if the questions are a little vague. Thanks again for any thoughts you may have.
How Do I Find a Sweet Guy?
I'm getting so entirely disheartened by the online dating scene. I'm not horribly ugly, and I want to find a guy that's sweet, and attentive and wants to know what I think about stuff. I'm sure that's really girly, but it's just what I'd like. Guys seem to be really rough or sex-driven and I'm just not. I want someone who will get to know me and then we can be rough and sex-driven afterwards. Does anyone else feel this way? I can't be the only one. Has anyone found someone like this? How long did it take? I feel like I attract nothing but jerk faces.No, I'm not a girl. Just really girly.
2016. október 24., hétfő
NSFW NSFW NSFW
Boy oh boy. I've been interested in men for quite some time now but never been with one. I mainly want to experiment badly. The overwhelming urge to give a guy a blowjob is ridiculous, I have no idea who to ask because NO ONE can know until I know for sure and everything blah blah. Anyone with experience help please.
What should I do?
Hey folks,I need your help to save me from potential emotional pain. I apologize for the lengthy context but wanted to give you folks all the details so you can tell me the best course of action moving forward:Background – I am a 29 yo student in a University and met a cute guy (fellow student) on grindr about 2 months ago. My primary motive for being on the app was/is to find a ‘friends with benefits’ or even a fb arrangement so I’d have someone regular to have fun with and perhaps try new things in bed. I found a cute 25 yo guy (let’s call him Mike) and definitely hit it off with this person i.e. we have definitely met the ‘friends’ portion of the relationship. Now, Mike is already in a committed relationship (long distance but open i.e. both partners can f-around) so he is not comfortable with anything that may border ‘dating’ or a strong ‘emotional attachment’ (as he calls it) since he claims he is in love with his bf of 8 months who also happens to be 14 years older than him (doesn’t matter but figured I’ll mention it regardless). I appreciate his honesty and we discussed our rules at length i.e. no sleepovers, no date-like dinners and pure flesh-n-flesh fun with no attachment. But things don’t seem so simple now that we have been fooling around for the last 2 months. A quick look into the problem:(1) While we both have fooled around 2-3 times, I have noticed that I have been doing a lot of begging and pleading to get him to agree to fool around (2) Mike has a ‘short list’ of people he meets every now and then and also regularly fools around with new members from the glorious grindr community (3) While one part of me gets possessive and jealous, the other understands that he may not want a 1-1 monogamous sex buddy (4) We have met a Lot of times to hang out, grab food, get drinks but often there is a strong resistance to fuck around with me (5) I have directly discussed this with him and transparently mentioned that I am in no way getting attached to him and that, as we initially decided, we should just work on the benefits portion of this weird relationshipClimax – We recently got out for a weekend together and I was hopeful that I would be able to get him more comfortable with fooling with me or at least as comfortable (frequency terms) as he is with following around with all his other new weekly partners. However, prior to the trip, Mike explicitly mentioned that we will not have sex "during this trip". I was a little disappointed but figured he didn’t want to cross any boundaries in his existing relationship. However, on this trip, Mike was cruising around in the gay bars we visited and deserted me for hours to speak to this new guy he really liked and wanted to fuck. For some reason, I was really taken aback. I felt very humiliated and developed a strong complex that perhaps there is something wrong about me that is not being verbalized. To add insult to injury, he clearly articulated that we would sleep separately that night but had already made plans to meet this cute dude from the bar the next day. I was devastated.Advice Needed – I think I know what I am supposed to do but I will withhold mentioning it here so I can get some unbiased opinions about what you think I should do next. Should I keep the friend part alive even though it is not what I am looking for? Should I confront him and tell him how I felt? Will this make him have ‘pity’ sex with me? Shouldn't the intimacy rules apply to all the people he meet and, if so, do you think he is being honest about his exploits with his partner and the boundaries in their relationship? Should I just be happy with the rather forced sex that we have every 3-5 weeks? Should I take the hint that he is not really interested in what he said he was interested in and just move on? What else should I consider?Hoping your comments will save me a boatload of pain in the future. Help me reddit!
we need to find you a girlfriend!
Man I've been getting this one quite a lot lately. Sitting around with some friends I'm not out to and they start the whole "you need to come out of your shell and start talking to some girls" or the ever so subtle "when are you gonna get some bitches". No thanks lol I don't want any "bitches".
If you were to 'marry' (or whatever you choose to call it, or whatever it's called where you live) someone of the same gender, what would you do about surnames?
Would you take theirs, want them to take yours, make up a new one, double-barrel, portmanteau, roll a die, et cetera?
Homophobic Countries
What are the homophobic countries where a gay couple can not go due to the homophobic people?
How do I Propose to My Celebrity Boyfriend?
I am a 20 year old gay man in the US. I have been dating this celebrity (who is not out and doesn't plan on coming out soon). I won't say who he is but he is one of the main characters on a popular TV show which gets about 10 million views every episode. We met while he was promoting the show at Comic Con in New York. As previously stated, our relationship is not public. The only people who know about us is his immediate family, his close circle of friends and his co-stars on the show, who btw are all very supportive. Recently I was in a bad car accident here in LA and almost died. He came to see me and cried about me being in the hospital. The doctor said I will recover fine though. (Yay!) The whole incident made me realize that I want to be with him for the rest of my life (and not because he's a celebrity). But because everyday I'm with him, I don't feel weird or alone or different. I feel unconditionally loved, something I wasn't getting back home in upstate New York. And his fear and concern at the hospital only solidified my feelings. After I get out of the hospital, I wanna to propose to him. But I have a few fears: 1. Will he reject me? 2. How can we keep it a secret? 3. What kind of ring to you get a rich, successful young actor? Lol I just realized that life is way too short for regrets and I just want to tell him how much he means to me. Any advice?
Angels in Disguise: how some parents are trying to get me fired 'cause I'm gay...
I work at a religious school. Not fully religious, but dependent of an Islamic Institution. I knew when I started working here that my being gay could be a problem, but I didn't have a choice. And being same sex marriage fully legal in Argentina, where I live, I decided to go along with the job. After two years, I've become one of the most important teachers at school -not a matter of humbleness or not, just that I work in all levels-. I teach English in Kindergarten, Primary School and High School, from the 3 year-old classroom, up until senior year in secondary school. Three months ago, I posted something online about my being gay, on my FB page, and someone read it. And the rumors began. When it finally reacher the Heads, the Head of Primary and the Head of Secondary school came talk to me and assured me they had no problem with it. One of them just advised me to be careful because some people may not like it. One of the people who found out, a floating teacher from Kinder, started trashing my work around. Saying I'm a bad a teacher. She has a son in 4th grade, and I teach him. And she started making wild complaints about our job, mine and two other teachers', the Head's management, everything. She even asked for a meeting to discuss my work. The Head of Primary told her and her Husband that she was the one to choose a teacher, and that she fully trusted my work, and my whole persona. Of course, the gay topic didn't arise. They are not that stupid. Finally, they got other parents worked up, and we had a meeting with 6 parents, the legal Rep from the school, as it's private, the other two English Teachers and my Head. And it was just poisonous. This mother, with whom I still work, and her husband were just spitting lies and criticism all around. The husband even said that I shouldn't be working with little children because I'm a man. (I want to make a short clarification: I'm an English Teacher, I have second career on Linguistics, and am doing a Masters Degree on Language Acquisition. There are few people where I work that can say have my background experience on teaching and Lang Acquisition I do. I've been teaching English for 10 years, and I'm 28. ). Well, the point of this post is actually see if you like my Story.PS: the angels are this mother/teacher and her husband... :)He suit up as ha’d done for every other battle he had encountered before. He put on his armor; not his most shiny armor, nor his strongest armor, nor the one with which he had conquered the basilisk, or the gryphon. No. He suit up with a strong, reliable armor, because what he held within was most powerful than any helmet, breastplate, or sword he could find. He got up with a strange yet familiar feeling. A feeling that premeditated what kind of battle he’d have to face. It was an all too trustworthy feeling. Trustowrthy because he could bring himself to fight knowing how the battle would turn up. But that same feeling was also utterly and unequivocally terrifying. It was the feeling he had encountered prior to slaying the Meduse headless. It was the feeling that had tried to eat him whole that night he mutilated the Sphinx. It was the feeling he’d now forever more link directly to that very day: the feeling of poison fighting to spread through his body; the feeling of his limps, and muscles, and blood, and brain, trying to give in to those droplets of the most destructive of substances. He went along with his routine, as he’d done prior to any battle. He had his bread, drank his wine, and washed his face. He looked in the mirror and smiled. He knew for sure that, however frightening this day could turn up to be, no matter the injuries he could end up with, he could see a clear reflection. He could see his eyes, full of bravery and strength. He could see his mouth, which would only speak for the greater good, even if by some reason it didn’t seem so. He could see his full on countenance, which he had shaped to become what others had called ‘heroic, genius, great’, but that he could only see and refer to as ‘man’. That word was all he had fought for. That was all his master, his friend, his brother, his progenitor had sought to give him. The actual elixir of life: a clear conscious, and a never-ending will. As he rode his black indomitable horse, his station, he felt the rush of the battle. Like an Amazon Warrior, like Donna Troy facing danger, he rushed to it. He didn’t fight it. He didn’t even question it, though most of his kin could not but question his thrive. No. He went for it. When he saw and heard the clashing of metal, the dripping of blood, he had but one choice: to grip his sword harder, and slay. The sun shone high, foreseeing the battle. Apolo wanted to be in the first row to witness what he knew would be a spectacle of which generations on and on would discuss: the slaying of the angels in disguise. He arrive at the scene, and saw the familiar faces which would fight alongside him for the day, or month, or year this could last. He saw them confident, strong, and also caring. They were there out of the purity of their hearts, out of the kindness of their ways, and out of the justice within their souls. And then he saw her. The tiredless wizard which linked them all. The wizard to whom they all turned to for help, assistance, aid of all kinds. The wizard that had seen in them something more than simple fighters. The wizard that saw through their hearts and found a little piece of God hidden within their flesh. The wizard was all they had, and the angels in disguise were coming for him too. The angels had been brought together by a very dark and forbidden magic. A conjuring that could only bring desease and pity to all but the ones involved. A ritual so ancient that the very core of its power was to remain nameless for centuries, had it not been for Vaco and Saab who unleashed it after all those years. They glimpsed into each others eyes, and found something entirely different to what the wizard saw in iL, the warrior. They saw a scrap of the unknown; they saw a souvenir that came from the very depths of the Earth, that stank of fire and flesh. They saw hell hidden within their eyes, and their eyes met with a dangerous beauty which not even God himself would dare to oppose. And yet, iL did. iL had no choice, but to meet their glance. Unknown to iL, as he, Mikha, Jidda and the Wizard gathered at the battlefield, the angels Vaco and Saab connived and lurked around them. Unknown to iL, they had brought friends. They had brought specters, zombies, animals once human who had been destroyed by staring too long at their eyes, and had now become but shallow vessels in which souls used to reside. However, they were not forces to be dismissed so easily. Specters could seem harmless and weak, iL thought, but they are a force to reckon with. AN urgent matter took him elsewhere for a few minutes, not knowing the Wizard had been too cocky. For an instant, he thought of taking the battle upon himself, to spare the pain and sadness and destruction Vaco and Saab had been preparing. When he, Mikha and Jidda arrived at the battleground at last, the sight of the angels brought them to tears, and the swords they were gripping seemed to be knocked of their hands. Mikha’s bow even seem to vibrate tensiously at the sound of their screaching voices vomitting poison to the Wizard. Mikha and Jidda were blown off guard, but they saw iL and felt it. The power with which this man had been born. The Wizard had said it all along, and they had seen it through countless battles, but it was not until this very second that they were able to understand what it all meant. It was not the piece of glory hidden in his flesh. It was not the strength of his muscles, nor the grip of his sword, nor the intelligence of his mind. It was the will which he bore inside and could never be shut off, not even buy this two headed demon that had awakened to destroy him, what gave Jidda and Mikha strength. iL gripped his sword and blew a punch, with one of the specters jumping on to him. He scratched the air trying to rip his limps off, but he was all to prepared for that. He blew a shot at him, and managed to only kill another of the specters, a weakling one. The Wizard kept on going, but it seemed as if the angels in disguise had figured out a protective spell against the Wizard’s magic, so they were just spells going to waste. Not that the Wizard was ever going to stop fighting: he knew what he was fighting for, and he was not going to let the angels win. Jidda grabbed her maze and swing at them, a powerful and strong blow, but the disgusting and decaying hands of the specters stopped the blow from reaching the angels. They were hiding behind them like cubs behind their mother bear. But they went on with heir poisonous tongues, trying to melt iL’s face with their fluids. Two of the specters went down, but the strongest of them found strength in that, and kept on attacking. Mikha took an arrow, placed it on the bow, and shot. It came inches from ripping the specters head off, but a blow of acid breath from Vaco destroyed the arrow mid air. But it did hurt the specter. Suddenly, when the specter seemed to be retreating, Vaco and Saab came running back to the battle. They were furious, and came with all they had. They were fast as Mercury, and their blows and hits as accurate as the best Archers in the Eastern Empires. They went after Mikha first. Vaco melted the floor underneath her feet, while Saab swing at her with a black sword. Just when it seemed it was all over for Mikha, iL came with his black Horse, at full speed, and saved her from death. But she was too injured to continue, so iL left her someplace safe and returned to Battle. The Wizard was face to face with the Specter, who was moving towards his heart: it was hungry. Jidda was handling Vaco and Saab on her own, as iL approached the battle and decided he had had enough. He caught his hand and covered the sword with his blood. The Wizard had once told him, ‘THere’s nothing more powerful than your blood, because within it runs the power of will. It’s not God nor the Devil what keeps the stars apart and the planets doing their cosmic dance. It’s will, and you’ve got more than I ever saw in a person’. With his sword dripping of his own blood, he approached the Spectre and with a move that it couldn’t even begin to dodge, ripped the head of the abomination. iL took the Wizard by the hand, lift him, on to his horse, and they rode together towards where Jidda was testing the devil’s patience: the angels in disguise were becoming stronger and stronger. ‘That’s their power’, iL thought. ‘They are feeding of everything that surrounds them, as they started doing when they cast the spell that brought them together. I need to stop them now’. The Wizard put his very own Bahka from his neck to that of iL. ‘What are you doing Beet? Without this, you’ll die within seconds!’, said iL. ‘Yes, I’m well aware of that. But Mikha, Jidda, you, the world will live. The angels must be vanquished’, answered the Wizard. ‘I’m not accepting this. Your wisdom is necess-‘ ‘Shut up, and do as told! There’s little time, and the world is on the tip of your sword. Save it!’. AS he said this, the Wizard jumped of his horse and fell, becoming nothing but dust… First his Master, and now the Wizard. iL kept on riding, facing the battle. This is what he had been born for. IT was this very moment. The moment in which he would save the world. Not because he was asked to, not because he wanted to. He was saving the world because, for him, there was no other way but this. He had to slay the angels. ‘Ahhhhhhhh!!!!’, shouted as he flew of his horse, landing within the two angels. They didn’t see him coming. He cut the left leg of Vaco, and Saab came creeping towards him, but he was ready. He flipped backwards, and then jumped towards it piercing the joint of Saab’s right arm. He twisted, and as the poison dripped over his sword, the blood he had spilled on it went into Saab’s body. And the angel started screeching harder and harder, painfully, not knowing what had hit him. But Vaco wasn’t just letting this happen. The angel rushed toward iL with renewed hate within its eyes, and Jidda was prepared for it. She hit the angel in disguise so hard on the head, the it fell and landed on the bloody mud. ‘Jidda!!’, cried iL, throwing the sword to her. Jidda took it, and cut Vaco’s head off with a clean cut, as Saab cried of pain and started melting. Jidda and iL saw as the two angels in disguise, the most ruin and terrible creatures the world had ever seen became nothing but muddy figures swollen by the earth. Mikha joined them, and she and Jidda cried. They cried for all those they had lost. They cried for the pain it had caused, but also for the light they had shed and was to come. iL just stood there, knowing. Knowing his faith would always be there. His power would always be there. As poisonous as the enemy would get, he had faith in his veins. The faith that this muddy battlefield was worth living, because there was nothing but that. And he walked away.
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