How can I find a serious relationship?

I am gay, and I am not entirely out. Everyone I'm close with knows, but it is not "common knowledge" among everyone who knows me that I am gay.Basically, I'm to the point where I have decided that I want a serious relationship. I went through all the normal steps of a curious gay guy who wants to put himself out there (e.g. download Grindr and Tinder, etc.).On every app I try, all I find is people who want NSA sex or maybe an FWB. I want neither of those things. I want a loving, monogamous relationship. Someone I can be entirely myself with. A best friend. Someone to complete me emotionally, not just sexually.I live in a small, rural town. Almost no one is open about their sexuality, which I feel contributes to the fact that everyone is so hookup-oriented. Also, as you can imagine, the options are limited. I am definitely gay, but I am not easily attracted to anyone at all. I've only ever truly crushed on like 5 guys in my lifetime.My fear is that I'll never find someone I like who also is gay and likes me back. I really want to find someone, but nothing I try brings any luck. What other methods are there for meeting people who might be more relationship-oriented?TL;DR: Need to find a real relationship, not just hookups. Grindr and Tinder have failed me. What else do you suggest?