2015. szeptember 30., szerda

just really feel like sharing

i think i may have found my first boyfriend. ive only been out to myself for about 2 years now, and ive hooked up with 3 or 4 guys in those two years. 2 of those guys were short term fuck buddies. i met a guy about a month or so ago on grinder, and we talked a bit... and about a week and a half ago, we met. i felt pretty quickly that he was different from the other guys, and i really like him... but im a-romantic. i told him this, and he seemed to understand and was cool with it. im a pretty sensual, kind, softie of a guy. i think that he is interpreting that as me falling in love though... and he has all but already mentioned that he loves me.... in a romantic sense. i do really like him... and enjoy being around him... but i am definitely not in love, and will not ever be. i dont know how to put it gently and succinctly to him what i want to say. he keeps trying to get me to say things like i love him as a friend and things like that... and i guess i kind of do, but it makes me feel off to be pushed to saying that. again, i do really like him, and wanna keep him around. i even told him that i would be cool with an exclusive relationship somewhere down the line if it got to that... but that i wont ever be able to say i love him romantically. i dont want to string him along, but at the same time, ive already said it wont happen, so its not my fault, whatever happens, right?

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