I'm tired of being gay, can I just be straight please?

I can't come out to my parents. Any chance I get to talk to other gay people I seem to get treated horribly. Any connections I create with gay people it turns to shit. I had someone lie about his name and when I asked about it he blocked me on everything. I want a normal life that doesn't involve me hiding my identity from my family and pretending to be something I'm not. I don't know what this is, vent maybe? I don't give a shit anymore