I'm not gay but

When I was like 6 or 7 maybe younger me and my brother who was a year younger than me would suck each other dicks because it tickled. We enjoyed trading soft blow jobs to each other for a while until one day our dad walked in and we never did again. We didn't know any better, we were just having fun. We didn't know about religion or anything. Then when I got older, I discovered an erection and then discovered masturbation. When I discovered masturbation, I would dream of 69ing with my brother , but he started acting wierd and I somehow knew that he wouldn't do it. Fast forward 20 years, I have suppressed the memories then remembered them. I wonder, am I gay? I do still imagine dicks in my mouth , but still like females. I've had many girlfriends and fell in love and whatnot. Ever since I started experimenting with lsd my parents have been asking if I was gay, which they never have done. Who is this "Devil" dude and why do we have a gay connection or some cult shit. Lol