cross-dressing

im 16 and im not confused about my sex or gender im a dude and i like men, but ive always been attracted to women in a strange way. i feel inspired by the look and i would love to be like that. But im more of a heaver person (im not fat or even chubby) and i dont know how to achieve the ascetic or if i feel motivated to...what if i look ugly? Will i waste my time? is it too late to start? i just need advice and encouragement thanks ;*