Straight Guy Seeks Gay Boyfriend - But How?

I'm straight, but I really enjoy the intimacy of friendship that I get from gay men. I'm attracted to women, but I don't want to date them right now for 3 reasons:1) I don't like who I become when I date women - they bring a lot of chaos into my emotional life, and I just can't handle it. 2) I don't feel very sexual right now and haven't for a while. 3) Women suck at massages.I want the friendship and intimacy of a relationship with a gay man, minus the sex, but with good, strong massage trading. I basically want a boyfriend and everything that goes along with that but minus the sex.What I need advice on, though, is where to look? What sites should I go on? Could I find someone on Grindr? I'm at a loss here.I don't need anything monogamous (especially since we're not having sex) but I want a "boyfriend," not just someone to come over and rub me and then leave.Any advice would be appreciated!