Closet ass nigga

So my brother has been putting in my head that I'm not (just because he likes being a dick). Well the thoughts been in my head and one got black out drunk, and told my brother in law I'm not gay. Like wtf now everyone thinks I'm a liar. Its taken me and my mom time to come to terms with this (I'm mostly there already); Now my mom is head over heels excited and everything I've been working for has gone to shit and I have to start all over. Mostly here for the rant but also advice anything really