Afraid of sucking dick

So I am recently out and haven’t had much experience with guys. I love the idea of making out with one and touching all over his body except for his asshole and the thought of sucking his dick. Ill frot and everything but the idea of sucking that thing gives me the heebie jeebies. Any experienced gay guys who share this or do I just need to meet someone I like and it will not be that big of a deal? It just seems like gay guys just love giving head and Im not so about that. Someone gave ME head and I didn’t even think it was as great as everyone says anyways. Maybe he was bad at it.