Straight neighbour

Straight neighbour, married, two kids, smokes a lot of dope with me, appreciates good beer, I can’t help but want to suck his dick every time I see him. I just can’t ask. The drinking doesn’t help, I get slut-tee. He has piercings (admits to a Jacob’s Ladder on his dick), and talks about his sexual conquests. He tells me a lot of intimate stuff about him and his wife.This is just a rant, not so much a question. It’s just a blow job, what’s the big freaking deal?