me venting

So I'm sure I'm gay or bi. Ever since I was a kid I have had a gay vibe to me, as I always played with the 'girls' toys and I had long hair. I believe there was a time when my mom asked me what I want to be when I grow up and I answered "I wanna be a girl." (I am 100% sure I'm not trans though) I honestly have no idea why I'm writing this, I guess I just wanna tell yall the story, So around the time I was 6 kids started bullying me for being too girly and gay, so I guess I kinda straightened up. I never really thought about my sexuality until I was 12, as I never really had crushes. There actually was a phase when I thought I was asexual because of that lol. So yeah time skip to me being 12. 12 year old me discovered porn. I watched straight porn up until I was 14, even though at that time I already kinda knew I liked boys. I did like straight porn and I legit thought I was straight for a while, until I came to a realization that I liked boys, when I got a crush on one and I accidentally looked at gayporn(liked it lol). I started crying, I hated myself, but I didnt try to force myself to be straight, I just kinda accepted it. I still think like girls but I just havent thought about being with one in a while. I act straight and havent come out to anyone yet, because I'm just not ready yet but I know my amazing parents will support me since they love lgbt and always force me to come to pride parades with them <3 I know I'm still 15, young and figuring things out, but I just wanted to tell you guys that IM GAY/BI!!