I feel so lost

I met a guy on tinder. We talked and he was funny and goofy and sweet. We spoke on the phone for hours and hours and hours. He seemed really keen to meet but then stood me up. After a few days he got in touch to say his grandmother had died and he had been completely overwhelmed with grief. We started chatting again sometimes we'd spend hours messaging sending several messages every minute. I completely fell for the personality of the guy I was talking to. I didn't find him that attractive at first he was ok looking nothing special, but over the weeks that we spoke I really began to fancy him. He told me he had a kid and then sent a picture of the kid and the kids mother.When he stood me up a third time I checked out the pictures online and realized the kid was just some random picture he'd found on the internet. I confronted him and he cut off all contact. Then I got him to get back in contact but when I asked him if he would prove his identity to me he got really angry and accused me of not trusting him. The last thing he said to me was that he was going on a date with another guy who would never play silly games like I was (he also never admitted he had invented the kid).Facebook suggested him as a friend, which I worked out was because his contact number was in my address book. His facebook profile seems real. It goes back years and has his family members on it. He had told me all about his family and their facebook profiles check out like the jobs they have and stuff. I must have been speaking to the real guy just some of the details of his life he invented.I don't know if he ever liked me or if that was another lie. I was doing fine for several days. I knew he had been the one playing games and the way he spoke to me the last time made me realize what a scumbag he was. I'd deleted everything to do with him or so I thought. Then I came across a screenshot of one of the messages he'd sent me that I'd sent to another friend and it reminded me of how ridiculously happy I was before I found out he was lying to me. Since then I've just been so down. the last two nights I've dreamed of him turning up apologizing for creating a story about his kid and whatever else he lied about and asking if we could start over. I just wish they weren't dreams and that he actually did show up. My whole life no one has ever shown the slightest interest in me. I've never really clicked with anyone. He wasn't perfect he'd discussed his flaws with me and I didn't care. They just made him seem so real and made me like him even more.I know about the whole catfish thing. Its just nothing he did or said really set of alarm bells. Like I say his phone number links to his facebook account so I know he is a real person. I guess stuff moved fast but the way he was talking was exactly the way I felt. He told me he was checking his phone constantly that he had a cheesy grin on his face all week and that he kept biting his lip whenever he was waiting to hear from me. I was doing all of that. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this. My friends just think its my own fault for falling for someone who I'd never met. Apart from one friend who says I'll meet someone who makes me feel the way he did for real. Except that has never happened before and I don't think it will ever happen. I just feel so lonely and before all this I used to do lots of stuff to fill my life and distract myself from the loneliness. Now everything feels empty and devoid of any joy.