I hate im straight

Work out, care a lot about my looks, i'm just socialle awkward, have no social status and lack courage. I notice attention and compliments from guys, but nothing from girls, was disappointed with a few girls and the whole thing seems so insanely complicated. It'd be so easy if i was gay, so please appreciate it, my dear gay guys. I refuse to sex older women or pay for it, so i'll still have a long way to go unless you can convert me