I can’t come to terms with being gay.

I am in high school currently and I am attracted to men in all forms. Sexual, emotional. I can see myself getting into a relationship with another man romantically, but I can’t come to terms with it. Every time I ask myself if I’m really gay, I always come up with some excuse to say that I’m not. I am aware that labels don’t matter and I am who I am, but it just frustrates me thinking about. I haven’t had any romantic interactions except kissing a girl once, which which wasn’t satisfying.