The dream of becoming a houseboy

I'm a broken spirit. I'm 21, and I literally have no interest in "normal" life plans. I don't want to get a workplace-based job, I have anxiety in public places, and what I currently do doesn't bring anywhere near enough income to have my own place to own (or rent).I've been fantasizing over getting a really good boyfriend, and be his stay at home lover/houseboy. I love taking care of my room/house, so I feel the natural step is to find my someone to love - hopefully if they have a nice, simple home. I'd feel like I'd have a life purpose. To take care of my love, and to take care of our home. I don't know if this dream is unattainable, but it surely makes me feel better to think about. I really don't want to spend my life being a lonely barcode scanner. I just want peaceful days and romantic evenings. ;-;