Emotion is a bitch

If only I can exist without this string that's tying me down. I hate that I have emotions, a desire to be wanted, a longing to be have. Why must I feel like this? I love to be loved but being loved is difficult. I know I'm picky, I tried to look past that but it seem like I can't. I would go out with guys trying my hardest not to pass any judgment. Trying to like him for who he is, but at the end I end up thinking. He's not my type, too skinny, too tall, too short, too fat, too nerdy. This dual conflict that exist in me, how do I overcome it? It's weird that I wanted to be wanted but at the same time I don't want to be with people I don't like. Wtf is wrong with me? Why am I so shallow? Uggg if only I can have not the so call emotions that would be wonderful. And perhaps I'll be more humane too.