Love

I think I’m scared of love or very picky when my men. Im currently 17 about to be 18 and yet not have dated any guys. I’m out to my mom only and that’s all that matters. I’ve talked to a lot of guys (not going to lie) yet all they ask for nudes and all that. I know a bunch of guys tell me they love me because of me but no I hardly doubt it. Anyways, to my main point. I’ve liked people, about a year I talked to this guy and he liked me too but I brushed him off for a little and just kept talking to others, after a while I did notice I started to develop feelings. I don’t know but out of natural habit I push people away, so I pushed him away and blocked him. Ive seem to do that to every man. I say I like them, then say I can’t like/love them then I just don’t talk to them. I just move on but this keeps continuously happening. I don’t know why though, I’ve never experienced true love.