Is it bad that I suppressed my gayness until now?

Ok so I have, for the most part, known I was gay since I was 12. Back when I was younger I had a massive crush on my friend that I experimented with. After getting over that nothing would come from that, I never exactly crushed on or noticed guys until now. Is that weird? That I just sorta repressed my feelings for other guys until I came out? Its been catching me offguard. Like before I only enjoyed Mac Demarco's music but now I realize between his music and his personality, I'm crushing on him super hard. I feel so weird. It sounds soooo cliche but there's a fluttery feeling in the pit of my stomach now when I see some guys. It's nice actually, but damn is it catching me off guard.