Date me

I've just had it, and I really want to let off some steam. I realize a lot of people have it differently than my situation, and, to be honest, go ahead and tell me. I'm 27, Dutch, and I feel anything but the type of guy that seem to be dateable: I'm neither overweight nor muscled, neither feminine nor masculine. I'm a smart guy, but about to start a regular teaching gig. I came out 12 yrs ago, and even started organizing radical gay and queer parties. Ever since I broke up with my last boyfriend three years ago, I've dated two guys and been seeing another physically for some time. ... Still... I'm so mad and frustrated. I just want a cool guy to like me back. No bullshit. Who gets me, sees me. ...Argh. Okay. End of ranttldr: I feel like I'm some sort of alien who nobody wants.