I need advice

So I’ve been with my boyfriend for about 8 mos now and we’re heading into the holidays (yay!). His parents are very southern (think certain flags flying in the yard). He also can’t afford to move out and he’s scared to.He is not out to his parents, I went to his thanksgiving and I couldn’t even say I love you to him. I don’t want to be that person and force him out because that happened to me in a sense.His parents think that we’re just best friends but it’s going to kill me to go to our first Christmas and not be able to kiss him and say that I love him.I guess I’m just venting and I’m sorry.I’ll answer any questions as soon as possible and any and would be appreciated.